GREAT WHITE SHARK
Master Don Juan
Ill make it short.
I have been in a ltr for 2 /1/2 years. But after the first year all the dreams I had with her, of getting married, living together, etc.. falled apart, and she also kinda gave up on her dreams too. She use to try to show me ads on the news paper on real state "hey, look here with me, lets look for an apartment.." but I didnt want to.
The dreams I use to have (living together) were abandoned because of 2 things:
1, I noticed that I couldnt make enought money to pay for our expenses - I just started working on the sotck market, and it difficult to learn this
2, she had a graduation party and you had to buy the ticket, her mother gave her money to buy for all of us.. but she didnt buy mine!! Her excuse is that I wasnt interested, well, I really cant say, but I wanted to go.
After this those dreams went to trash, I felt cheated.
Our relationship was deterioring, once or twice a month this whole thing would come to top water and whe would cry, and we fighted, argued but in the end we were still together.
.... its hard to write everything down here....
Then she received a scollarship to study in Italy.
She went and stayed there the whole month of October. I could feel that she was going to do something, I just knew.
It is important for you to know to give me your opinion, that our relationship was kind of... hmn... superficial. I assume that I was ashamed of going out with her, I would get nervous and willing to get out of her house the moment she started talking about marriage and the apartment.. I didnt reply her questions.
But I always tried to understand her.
In the meanwhile I use to go out and flirt very lightly with other girls, I even went to this girls house, got in to her bed, she was there willing to do everything, but I remembered that I was in a ltr and did nothing, but stood up and left.
Ok, back to Italy.
She kissed another guy. Didnt have sex. Just kissed.
Then she came back yesterday.
I knew there was something in the air... I kept on asking her,, did you cheat on me?
She was afraid of my reaction.. bingo. She did it, my intuition was confirmed.
On the first minutes I tried to think (keep it cold and dont act on emotions - traders rule #102).
I left the place and went to a church on an university, its a place that calms me down - and its full of hot girls hehehehe - then I returned to where she was to talk more. I needed to know why she did that to me.
Because, I went to the edge, but never jumped. Understand?
Then on the talk we had she told me that did it because she wanted to get revenge on me, because I did not gave her an engagement ring, because I did not talk about our future, because I didnt treat her like my woman.
but I can tell you DJs. I always treated her good. I made severe efforts to be with her, (she lives in a near town , about 15 miles).
I always did whatever necessary to give her the best. I even ate her mothers food!!!!!! ehehheheeh
Now, I dont know what to do, I woke up today feeling very angry with her.
...oh yes, gotta write another important things...
On the middle of october all those wishes of living together were reborn and I started planning everything again, and when she was yet in Italy, I told her by the phone that we should live together, we should rent an apartment. I sent her a message on the phone "bring something for our apartment".. she didnt bring.
in this whole time, I were always lightly flirting with other girls, going out with my friends, but I never kissed another woman.
When we spoke about she giving me her money for me to work on the stock market with it I told her I would charge her 25% comission - I dont know, but this makes clear we were not a real couple....
What I realize is that:
1 Our ltr was in pieces before she traveled. Assuming this she did what she did because I was not the man I should be.. ? She did not have a man at all, so she went to find one. We were not a couple, it was just fake.
2 Even tough we werent REEEALLY together I did not actually cheated.
3 She told me that she kissed the guy because he proposed her marriage, but she knew it was just an ilusion, so why do it after all???
Jesus, Im confused... give me your opinion. What would you do in my situation?
I have been in a ltr for 2 /1/2 years. But after the first year all the dreams I had with her, of getting married, living together, etc.. falled apart, and she also kinda gave up on her dreams too. She use to try to show me ads on the news paper on real state "hey, look here with me, lets look for an apartment.." but I didnt want to.
The dreams I use to have (living together) were abandoned because of 2 things:
1, I noticed that I couldnt make enought money to pay for our expenses - I just started working on the sotck market, and it difficult to learn this
2, she had a graduation party and you had to buy the ticket, her mother gave her money to buy for all of us.. but she didnt buy mine!! Her excuse is that I wasnt interested, well, I really cant say, but I wanted to go.
After this those dreams went to trash, I felt cheated.
Our relationship was deterioring, once or twice a month this whole thing would come to top water and whe would cry, and we fighted, argued but in the end we were still together.
.... its hard to write everything down here....
Then she received a scollarship to study in Italy.
She went and stayed there the whole month of October. I could feel that she was going to do something, I just knew.
It is important for you to know to give me your opinion, that our relationship was kind of... hmn... superficial. I assume that I was ashamed of going out with her, I would get nervous and willing to get out of her house the moment she started talking about marriage and the apartment.. I didnt reply her questions.
But I always tried to understand her.
In the meanwhile I use to go out and flirt very lightly with other girls, I even went to this girls house, got in to her bed, she was there willing to do everything, but I remembered that I was in a ltr and did nothing, but stood up and left.
Ok, back to Italy.
She kissed another guy. Didnt have sex. Just kissed.
Then she came back yesterday.
I knew there was something in the air... I kept on asking her,, did you cheat on me?
She was afraid of my reaction.. bingo. She did it, my intuition was confirmed.
On the first minutes I tried to think (keep it cold and dont act on emotions - traders rule #102).
I left the place and went to a church on an university, its a place that calms me down - and its full of hot girls hehehehe - then I returned to where she was to talk more. I needed to know why she did that to me.
Because, I went to the edge, but never jumped. Understand?
Then on the talk we had she told me that did it because she wanted to get revenge on me, because I did not gave her an engagement ring, because I did not talk about our future, because I didnt treat her like my woman.
but I can tell you DJs. I always treated her good. I made severe efforts to be with her, (she lives in a near town , about 15 miles).
I always did whatever necessary to give her the best. I even ate her mothers food!!!!!! ehehheheeh
Now, I dont know what to do, I woke up today feeling very angry with her.
...oh yes, gotta write another important things...
On the middle of october all those wishes of living together were reborn and I started planning everything again, and when she was yet in Italy, I told her by the phone that we should live together, we should rent an apartment. I sent her a message on the phone "bring something for our apartment".. she didnt bring.
in this whole time, I were always lightly flirting with other girls, going out with my friends, but I never kissed another woman.
When we spoke about she giving me her money for me to work on the stock market with it I told her I would charge her 25% comission - I dont know, but this makes clear we were not a real couple....
What I realize is that:
1 Our ltr was in pieces before she traveled. Assuming this she did what she did because I was not the man I should be.. ? She did not have a man at all, so she went to find one. We were not a couple, it was just fake.
2 Even tough we werent REEEALLY together I did not actually cheated.
3 She told me that she kissed the guy because he proposed her marriage, but she knew it was just an ilusion, so why do it after all???
Jesus, Im confused... give me your opinion. What would you do in my situation?
