Well, if some of you recall, I just had a fling a month back which didn't work out. This is when I took a break from a relationship that almost lasted three years. Last night, we ended it officially.
I know how to act in these situations, because I've been through this and going crazy, crying, and over-reacting doesn't help at all. I just said "I respect your decision, good-bye."
Then I realized, I have nothing to fall back on. The only thing I'm going to carry everywhere is myself and I have NOTHING. That hurt me deeper than losing a three year old relationship.
My job is great from the outside. I'm a hairdressing educator, so it's fashionable and quite prestigious. It pays decently, but inside it's really just something that takes up very long hours and is mentally and physically exhausting.
These few months have taken it's toll as we have so many things to do, and more coming up. I'm not sure if this field is for me anymore. I don't look forward to work, which I think is bad.
I wish I could have a life to look forward to. Something that would jumpstart me from bed each day. I guess that would be too much to ask for, because I could sense most of you guys are searching for the answer as well.
Just needed to get that off. Good night.
I know how to act in these situations, because I've been through this and going crazy, crying, and over-reacting doesn't help at all. I just said "I respect your decision, good-bye."
Then I realized, I have nothing to fall back on. The only thing I'm going to carry everywhere is myself and I have NOTHING. That hurt me deeper than losing a three year old relationship.
My job is great from the outside. I'm a hairdressing educator, so it's fashionable and quite prestigious. It pays decently, but inside it's really just something that takes up very long hours and is mentally and physically exhausting.
These few months have taken it's toll as we have so many things to do, and more coming up. I'm not sure if this field is for me anymore. I don't look forward to work, which I think is bad.
I wish I could have a life to look forward to. Something that would jumpstart me from bed each day. I guess that would be too much to ask for, because I could sense most of you guys are searching for the answer as well.
Just needed to get that off. Good night.