ThunderMaverick
Master Don Juan
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We're all late bloomers, it seems. All of us here have been in pretty embarassing situations when it came to being around someone you liked, asking them out, etc. You'd do something or say something to make yourself so nervous, that all of your questions, doubts, and indecissiveness came out of your body in the form of sweat, studders, and shakiness.
I bloomed late. After my 21st birthday, let's just say that that night changed my view of women forever. They wern't the sugar and spice I once knew and saw on the television and in movies. They wern't like what they use to tell me they were like. They wern't all damsels in distress. They wern't maidens to be saved.
They are, however from another planet.
I started to see women as insecure creatures. Self-conscious. Waiting to be swept off their feet. Agressive.
Voulneralbe. Incredibly voulnerable.
Ok so all that crap about me seeing them in a whole new light is out of the way. I became less afraid. I became more aggressive. I started not to care what they thought. I was just me. I became suductive. Alot of them felt the vibe and we went along with it.
I was new. I got more tail in 1 year than I did my whole life. I realized my potential and made it rise to the surface for everyone to see. I did a 180.
A TOTAL 180! I wasn't who I was before. I was smarter.
BLA BLA BLA!! Let's just say I wasn't who I was before.
But just when you think you've changed, the YO-YO of your attitude comes rolling down the string of doubt. All it takes is a little doubt to just set me off. Wow. Damn I'm insecure. I can't belive it.
I'm in the parking lot of my school. It's 10 pm. My theater rehersal is over. I want to talk to this girl I like. I don't get a chance.
5 minutes later I'm alone in the parking lot with 2 of my close friends, throwing my backpack on the ground and I just broke down. I started crying. *shrugs*
The parking lot...Hm. A false start. Let's start from the beggining of this whole thing. It all started when rehearsal for our school play just started.
I'm in a community college, btw. I'm 22.
There's this girl, one of the actresses. Sometimes I caught her staring at me and such. Maybe she thought I was attractive. I dunno. We talked a little and such and It seemed that she thought I was ok at least.
Now I don't know what situation happened first, but i'll do it in this order:
We're sitting while other people are rehearsing and she asked me to give her a shoulder massage. I did. It was nice.
Then one night I ask if she could take me home after all of the cast went out to a resturant. She said yes, then changed her mind right when we get to the car and asks if I could get a ride with someone else.
"...Questions, Jonathan, questions." What in the hell am I suppose to think about this?! "Does she like me anymore? Is she sick of me already?! Maybe she has to be somewhere? Don't take it personal! Take it personal! She hates you! She has things to do!!"
And on and on. Keep in mind when she said that ALL OF THOSE THOUGHTS WERE IN MY HEAD INBETWEEN THE SPLIT SECOND AFTER SHE SAID THAT AND I RESPONDED WITH:
"Oh that's ok. I'll just walk. My house isn't that far." Then she said she felt bad and drove me home. EH. >_<
We then exchanged IMs and I was off. We've talked a few times on AIM, but nothing serious. I haven't gotten to get into really serious conversations with her. But then she shows signs that she's attracted to me again. She's cute with me sometimes, but she just might be nice. I don't know. The point is is that she's not repelled by me. I can make something work...Somehow.
She broke up with her boyfriend over AIM. He was in the military and they were together for a year and knew each other for 3. I guess it was serious. But she's saying he dumped her over AIM, so I don't know how the hell serious it is.
But I'm doing a film with a couple of friends of mine and they were looking for a few females to cast in it. What a perfect time to talk to my crush and try to get her involved. I told her about it, gave her a script. She read it and was (and still is, i think) interested. But it's been hard to get together with her, because she' busy in the daytime and after rehersal all of her and her girlfriends from the cast go out to eat.
It's really hard to catch her by herself. So tonight we're all trying to get together, but so many people are like "let's go here! here! What are we doing tonight?!" So many talking heads! Agh! It ended in everyone leaving, her meeting with us tommorow, and me and 2 of my friends in a parking lot.
That was just the straw that broke my back. Other things caused this melt-down of mine. Stress with school. Trying to find work. Parents and collection agencies breathing down my neck. I just snapped. That was the final card that was pulled out, and the castle of my patience just toppled. I felt broken. Dammit.
It was so different a month ago. A month ago I was making out with some chick I just met at a gathering, feeling like a true DJ...and now here I am...crying in an empty parking lot at my school at 10 o'clock at night.
Just when you think you've gotten past that part of your life you relive it again. What a nightmare.
But most of it is in my mind. That's the insane part.
More questions. So many things swirling in my mind.
I just have to get over my fears I guess. I don't know where to start. The questions. Questions. Questions.
So that's why I'm here. I was hoping to get a second or third or forth..or tenth opinion on this matter. Please guys, help me out here. He are some of my questions:
What would be the best way I can just get to talk to her? One on one. I think that's the one thing I want to do most with her right now. I want to get to know her alot better than I do now.
She's 18. She just got out of a serious relationship, but she showed signs of attraction ( I think) While she still had a boyfriend. We'll they're broke up. Should I still subtly persue it? I mean she is young and jumping into another relationship...I don't want to do that to her. I'm 22, but I defiently know what I want. I just don't want to manipulate someone into...
...I don't know. Advice?
Is this worth anything? Is it worth a fight?
I bloomed late. After my 21st birthday, let's just say that that night changed my view of women forever. They wern't the sugar and spice I once knew and saw on the television and in movies. They wern't like what they use to tell me they were like. They wern't all damsels in distress. They wern't maidens to be saved.
They are, however from another planet.
I started to see women as insecure creatures. Self-conscious. Waiting to be swept off their feet. Agressive.
Voulneralbe. Incredibly voulnerable.
Ok so all that crap about me seeing them in a whole new light is out of the way. I became less afraid. I became more aggressive. I started not to care what they thought. I was just me. I became suductive. Alot of them felt the vibe and we went along with it.
I was new. I got more tail in 1 year than I did my whole life. I realized my potential and made it rise to the surface for everyone to see. I did a 180.
A TOTAL 180! I wasn't who I was before. I was smarter.
BLA BLA BLA!! Let's just say I wasn't who I was before.
But just when you think you've changed, the YO-YO of your attitude comes rolling down the string of doubt. All it takes is a little doubt to just set me off. Wow. Damn I'm insecure. I can't belive it.
I'm in the parking lot of my school. It's 10 pm. My theater rehersal is over. I want to talk to this girl I like. I don't get a chance.
5 minutes later I'm alone in the parking lot with 2 of my close friends, throwing my backpack on the ground and I just broke down. I started crying. *shrugs*
The parking lot...Hm. A false start. Let's start from the beggining of this whole thing. It all started when rehearsal for our school play just started.
I'm in a community college, btw. I'm 22.
There's this girl, one of the actresses. Sometimes I caught her staring at me and such. Maybe she thought I was attractive. I dunno. We talked a little and such and It seemed that she thought I was ok at least.
Now I don't know what situation happened first, but i'll do it in this order:
We're sitting while other people are rehearsing and she asked me to give her a shoulder massage. I did. It was nice.
Then one night I ask if she could take me home after all of the cast went out to a resturant. She said yes, then changed her mind right when we get to the car and asks if I could get a ride with someone else.
"...Questions, Jonathan, questions." What in the hell am I suppose to think about this?! "Does she like me anymore? Is she sick of me already?! Maybe she has to be somewhere? Don't take it personal! Take it personal! She hates you! She has things to do!!"
And on and on. Keep in mind when she said that ALL OF THOSE THOUGHTS WERE IN MY HEAD INBETWEEN THE SPLIT SECOND AFTER SHE SAID THAT AND I RESPONDED WITH:
"Oh that's ok. I'll just walk. My house isn't that far." Then she said she felt bad and drove me home. EH. >_<
We then exchanged IMs and I was off. We've talked a few times on AIM, but nothing serious. I haven't gotten to get into really serious conversations with her. But then she shows signs that she's attracted to me again. She's cute with me sometimes, but she just might be nice. I don't know. The point is is that she's not repelled by me. I can make something work...Somehow.
She broke up with her boyfriend over AIM. He was in the military and they were together for a year and knew each other for 3. I guess it was serious. But she's saying he dumped her over AIM, so I don't know how the hell serious it is.
But I'm doing a film with a couple of friends of mine and they were looking for a few females to cast in it. What a perfect time to talk to my crush and try to get her involved. I told her about it, gave her a script. She read it and was (and still is, i think) interested. But it's been hard to get together with her, because she' busy in the daytime and after rehersal all of her and her girlfriends from the cast go out to eat.
It's really hard to catch her by herself. So tonight we're all trying to get together, but so many people are like "let's go here! here! What are we doing tonight?!" So many talking heads! Agh! It ended in everyone leaving, her meeting with us tommorow, and me and 2 of my friends in a parking lot.
That was just the straw that broke my back. Other things caused this melt-down of mine. Stress with school. Trying to find work. Parents and collection agencies breathing down my neck. I just snapped. That was the final card that was pulled out, and the castle of my patience just toppled. I felt broken. Dammit.
It was so different a month ago. A month ago I was making out with some chick I just met at a gathering, feeling like a true DJ...and now here I am...crying in an empty parking lot at my school at 10 o'clock at night.
Just when you think you've gotten past that part of your life you relive it again. What a nightmare.
But most of it is in my mind. That's the insane part.
More questions. So many things swirling in my mind.
I just have to get over my fears I guess. I don't know where to start. The questions. Questions. Questions.
So that's why I'm here. I was hoping to get a second or third or forth..or tenth opinion on this matter. Please guys, help me out here. He are some of my questions:
What would be the best way I can just get to talk to her? One on one. I think that's the one thing I want to do most with her right now. I want to get to know her alot better than I do now.
She's 18. She just got out of a serious relationship, but she showed signs of attraction ( I think) While she still had a boyfriend. We'll they're broke up. Should I still subtly persue it? I mean she is young and jumping into another relationship...I don't want to do that to her. I'm 22, but I defiently know what I want. I just don't want to manipulate someone into...
...I don't know. Advice?
Is this worth anything? Is it worth a fight?