Getting very stressed lately

[Crissco]

Hey guys, been a while since I was here, long time member. Im having an issue lately at work that's bothering me. Backstory.

I started as a freelance web developer 3 years ago, along with many failed start ups. I made WordPress sites for clients and never really got into coding full time, so that was my area that was lacking. I got a job as developer 3 months ago. I'm learning on the job. But its stressful, I put so much pressure on my self to do well. The company is great and honestly everything this company does I have done when I did freelance so it fits my "area" very well.

The issue is I feel im not learning development as quick as I can it seems and now I went from coding from scratch to throwing stuff together to help speed up work so my skills will be lacking, I learned ALOT in the past 3 months, I went from knowing no HTM/CSS to mastering HTML/CSS in 3 months but it seems its not good enough for the boss(Hes ex-Navy). Makes me feel pretty stupid everyday. Plus the fact everyone else there is way ahead of me since they have been coding for years.

The job gives me what I need, security, the ability to move out and most importantly learning on the job. My goal is to move to California in a year and a half once I become full stack so I will have a job / security for the rest of life just incase if my start ups dont take off. But right now this job is killing me it feels, I wake up nervous and with heart palpitations. Which isnt good. The days of having 13 girls over in a week is "over" for the time being and damn it kind of sucks but nice at the same time.

Im a little confused on my direction here, Mind you I was doing one website a month just 3-4 months ago, now I have to produce over 2 websites a day to keep everything running smoothly. So far I went from one a week to about one a day in 3 months. Like said, the job is extremely stressful to the point I get nervous and wake up with heart palpation's sometimes.

Short Term Goals:

• Have a successful Software as a service making passive income online. Which gives me consisnt money and OPTIONS to not be tied down and do what I want.
• Move to California

I have two options it seems(Based off of my goals):

1. Stick with this job, learn as much as I can, possibly get a promotion, learn development have a career for life.
2. Go to a security job or a relaxing job where I am not stressed out all day long and learn development on the side

Its an emotions vs logic type of situation and its pretty damn tough.

/End rant, sorry guys.

 

[synergy1]

html/css are a pain. I couldn't imagine churning out 2 sites in as many days. It takes me a week to take something, and tailor it to my own needs. Coding from scratch a fully responsive site with JavaScript ( front end only) still would be a feat to get done in one week. Not sure how you are doing it.

So I am in a very similar situation to you - but in reverse. I am pretty stressed because I am working a full time job and learning development on the side. As a result, the product development is slow, and since I have no real experience its tough to gauge quality. I also want to relocate to CA. take this into consideration: Cali is expensive. Either get a good paying job so you can remain cash flow positive, or work the dev thing on the side to supplement income to keep the money coming in. As you are doing, keep learning and know that the struggle will yield results even if you don't know it.

So it seems your direction is good. Just get through it and take some of the punches. Navy folk can be hard to work with ( I know this for a fact). Remember , if your boss was an officer in any capacity, he spent his days keeping sailors in line. Its an unforgiving environment where politics and personality abound. If you are on their good side, all the power to you. If not, than your workload just doubled.

Feel free to PM me with questions or anything. Have a great weekend!

 

[Crissco]

Well one of those goals have been completed - I did move to Cali. San Diego to be exact

 

[synergy1]

How is that going so far? San Diego is one of my favorite places to visit. It seems tech there is a bit more spare than it is here in the north east, which made looking for dev jobs a little difficult. But its good you managed to figure out a way to make it happen.

What kind of start ups are you looking at these days? I will say from experience of starting my own..having a reliable business partner helps out so much. All of the small things that come up start to add up quickly. Having someone else you trust implicitly take care of an entire area helps immensely if you have to, for example, develop an app or something. But finding a good business partner is as hard as starting a business!

 

[Beetarta0rai]

Have a great weekend!

royal1688

 

[Crissco]

How is that going so far? San Diego is one of my favorite places to visit. It seems tech there is a bit more spare than it is here in the north east, which made looking for dev jobs a little difficult. But its good you managed to figure out a way to make it happen.

What kind of start ups are you looking at these days? I will say from experience of starting my own..having a reliable business partner helps out so much. All of the small things that come up start to add up quickly. Having someone else you trust implicitly take care of an entire area helps immensely if you have to, for example, develop an app or something. But finding a good business partner is as hard as starting a business!

Going well man, I love it here. It's paradise, and now im simply just building up an internet marketing / website development company. Made the most sense given my background and experience.

 

[PrettyBoyAJ]

PM me your experiences. I may need your help building up a website and marketing.