oprahjimfrey
Don Juan
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- Oct 26, 2003
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Forgive me djs, for i have sinned. I full knew the dj rules but broke them. And now i feel horrible. I obsessed over just 1 girl. Obsessed about 2.5 years (im 15 and in 10th grade.) In my mind, she was like a million tiers higher than me, and I was an ant gazing upon a mountain. The convos i had with her were always full of awkwardness because i was too foolish to see eye to eye. Rather than see her as a person, i almost felt like she was a demigod. Looking back I can tell that i knew she knew how i felt. But i lied to myself. I pretended she didnt know, i imagined things would turn out great. God damn, i was stupid enough to pretend that maybe she liked me and thats why she acted that way! Jesus i was BLIND. I was a fool. Today, I did realize the truth. Some of her friends were talking to me and mentioned it. It was not until then that i discovered how truly stupid i was. I had been obsessing over 1 girl to the point where i couldnt think straight. I constantly thought about what it would be like if we were together. I was ignorant. However, i feel good now. I feel a sense of relief, and now i could care less about her. I only feel mad at myself for my deception and false hope. I screwed myself over, and thats the bottom line. I warn all of you, dont end up like me. I knew the rules and i broke them. And i am the one who got fuked in the end. Forgive me fellow djs, for i have sinned
