Eph The World: She's Next

[Eph]

Eph The World: She's Next is my journal of my journey. Like a lot of you I've absorbed a lot of knowledge but for the most part haven't put it to use. Though I've always wanted to start a journal. Its also a lot better than starting hundreds of new threads just to ask questions. Though I have been working with a few girls I can't really start this thread until Monday. So for now some background on my two main played at this point.

Plate 1: I'll call her Raquel. Not her real name but close enough. Met her in Spanish class in August of last year but never really talked to her. She isn't the prettiest but she is extremely flexible and fit. Almost flat a$$ but she has a decent pair. When neither of us had a partner and the teacher asked who was her partner for the assignment, she said "I'll just work with Eph, if he lets me". All while we were working she would drop her pencil and hover her head above my d!ck. Needless to say she initiated Kino that day.

The next time she fvcked with me was when the class was working on the chalkboard and I was "in her way". She looked at me, turned her back to me and slid by. The teacher said she was just doing it to be annoying, but I knew better.

The last extreme IOI she gave me was during an assignment in Chemistry class - our only other class together. I was working with my lab partner behind her and while we're working she leans over her desk and gives me a perfect view of her tight, little @$$. I would have thought it was a coincidence, but a few minutes after she looked at my paper which confirmed the fact that she knew i was behind her.

I want nothing more than to bend her over and give her what she wants lol.

Plate 2: A decent looking Mexican girl with an incredible @$$. She seems to be worthy of a LTR with me this far but she has a bit of an attitude. Even though i like it, she seems like she'll be a lot of work to get a LTR with. Oh well she wouldn't be worth a LTR if she was easy. I'll call her Christy.

Met her in my JROTC class again at the beginning of the school year. She initiated a convo with me when she saw one of my songs in my notebook and asked to read it. A day or two later she had me read one of her songs. Some time after that she added me on Facebook, so i think if there isn't any attraction she is at least interested in me.

There is another girl in my JROTC class with Christy, but I've since dropped her as a plate because she's just not worth it. She has incredible legs, a great ass, and a dirty mind but she is too much of a b!tch at times. I've had to yell at her to chill out once when she was telling me to do something repeatedly and it was p!ssing me off. It is always the blondes that are like this in my experience. My ex-oneitis was also blonde (though was much prettier) and was a b!tch a lot of the time too.

There is also another girl/plate that is interested but she has a boyfriend and seems content with him so I'll keep messing with her from time to time (as she does to me) but I'm not expecting anything to happen with her nor do I really want anything to.

One more thing to note is both girls are juniors and I'm a sophomore in school.

Well that's it until Monday. Any and all advice is appreciated.

 

[macallik]

I noticed all of the plates have made moves on you or gave you IOIs. What have you done to reciprocate to show that you are interested and to push the envelope?

 

[Eph]

Not much unfortunately and it seems to be taking a toll on Raquel (plate 1). She seems to be hiding her anger behind jokes. I touch (poke) her when I get the chance but other than that I haven't been doing much with her. Luckily I know she's still interested so I haven't completely blown my chances.

With Christy (plate 2) its a bit of a different story. I've told to come hang out with me twice. The first time she was in another state for spring break so obviously a no-go, and the second time she didn't respond. I tried to start a conversation with her some time last week but class ended so she had me message her on facebook. Probably should have went with my first thought and just waited until the next day.

Didn't end too well. Not bad but not good. Here's a post from a previous thread I made about her, along with the advice I was given on the situation:

Me: You still up shorty? - 9:10
Her: -___- shorty? My name's _____. And why do you want me to write you a chorus? - 9:12
Me: Maybe I don't, maybe I just wanted a reason to talk to you - 9:26 (I admit it, I was stalling here)
Her: -___- Lame ass. You don't even talk to me in class so don't try to talk to me on facebook. - 9:27
Me: You told me to facebook you lol. We could of talked after class. - 9:31
Me: Seriously though, write me a chorus. - 9:41
(No response)
* Indicates paraphrased, slightly better grammatical, or rewritten slang.
She is pretty much the only person I don't talk to during our one class together. So, I've got some social proof. She seemed to be at least a little interested when she first talked to me. She also messes with me from time to time, as do I.

Tried to revive our previous conversation about her writing me a chorus today but when I jokingly asked if she had even started it, she just gave me a blatant no. I took her saying, "you don't even talk to me in class..." as her "inviting" me to talk to her more during class, but I don't know. I know she can be fun/playful, etc but it seems like she has a high initial ASD. In fact I know she does, her type always does. What should my next move be?

Advice/Responses (more for me, but feel free to read):

oh yes i know this kinds of girls. of to be more fair, when girls are like this with people.

she thinks she's too good for you.

i think first you have to become an attractive and solid guy. right now she feels like you are trying to pick her up, she should feel compelled to talk to you.

with girls in your same class its harder to pick her up cuz her reputation with the people she sees everyday is at stake. for her to sleep with you you have to help her social status, and when you are trying to pick her up you are lower value than her. for her to want you you have to kick her attraction switches and also have high social status. by that i mean the classic men wanting to be you and girls wanting to be with you situation.

if she marks the "seen at 00:00" you are pretty much absolutely done.

your flirting skills are actually good but she just wasnt the girl to use them with, in my humble opinion.

hope this helps bro.

dont place so much value on her. by this i mean you say you talk to everyone exept her, and when you do talk to her its throw IM, that tells her you are intimidated by her, therefore for her you are someone that doesnt deserve her, because you show that you fell you are not entitled to have her. you know what i mean?



this is what i imagine goes throw her unconceous(from what you are telling me): he doesnt talk to me in person, so either hes not interested or he's afraid to talk to be. i know im hot so that might be it. oh and also he tries to pick me up on IM, he definitly is afraid to talk to me in person. so i guess he feels hes not enough for me. well if he thinks that, he's probably got a good reason for that,. he's cool though he makes me feel wanted, i should keep him as a friend. yeah why would i be mean to him, hes nice with me. we are just fine as friends.
also he's good with people so he wanting me and me not being with him makes my social value go really high (girl pre selection). he's someone i wanna have arround, so i should make him feel good too. i should complement him so he doesnt loose attraction for me and goes to another girl. keep the flame going.

of course shes not racionally thinking this. if she is she is a hudge *****, this is all feelings. girls are insecure usually and having guys wanting them in a platonic fashion makes them feel wanted and more secure about themselves.

if this sounds all foreign to you good, i hope im wrong bro but i see this happening all the time with guys. its very common, its the platonic friend complex.

im an engineer student so in my classes its always 10 guys for every 3 girls, and the ones that are attractive have this group of hardcore afcs arround them all the time, i hate that cuz it gets their ego throw the roof and makes it exponentially harder for all of us to hook up with them. this can be solved though.

what i do and it does work is i just give love to every girl, doesnt matter if she's hot or not. guys i respect too. this way you start to get popular and build a name for yourself. people start knowing your name even if you never spoke to them and as you give good feelings to everyone people start loving you. sooner than later some girl will start flirting with you. you flirt back and correspond her flirtiness, this makes her feel good and wanted. the thing is you just flirt with her. dont push it yet. as she liked how she felt when she flirted with you she will again. maybe infront of other people. rumors will start to be created about you being good with woman, pre selection in college is soooooo powerful its almost a pre requisit and a free pass at the same time.

i actually had something similar happen to me. a girl i wanted had actually placed me on the friendzone, and i wanted to **** her not listen to her whine about other guys, so i was like i just cant be your friend, you are the girl of my dreams (i said this cheesy line cuz the way she is she wouldnt go arround telling everyone i said that to her, and it made her feel good so she has a nice memory of me. plus its true.) meanwhile i talk and make friends to everyone. i show her and all the girls in the engineering school i have a great time, i am sociable and im not fixated on one girl. i flirt with every girl that flirts with me, and i also have female friends that i dont wanna have sex with and that i love and love me back. this is all good for your image. idk if the girl that i fancied will ever wanna have sex with me but **** it, there are houdreads of other women. im actually seen one and about to go out with another, and have anotherone that is attracted to me and will preparty with us as soon as i get a pleace to throw that ****ing pre party at. when you truly understand what the metafore of many fish in the sea truly means, one girl that doesnt like you wont make a difference.

the more efford you put into getting this girl you talk about the further you will be from getting her. its all about letting her invest in you, i wrote a long post about that. you can actually find it at my blog too.

i think you are right, you need to dhv. but dhv throw other people's behaviour when they are arround you. thats a solid and powerful dhv.

all this is in the long run kind of advice. i think its the only thing that will help you in your situation. in the shortrun, go out and meet many other girls. the experience you gain will help you with this girl and all the others you will find in the future.

hope this helps bro. dont take anithing personal im just trying to help you and for that i need to be honest.

Indecisiveness is very unattractive. Always do whatever the **** you want to do and don't back down when a girl challenges you.

Be motivated by desire, desire to get what you want, not fear, like the fear of ****ing up with a girl. Be unapologetic, dont find excuses to talk to a girl. If you want to talk to her more, get the **** off your phone / computer and do it in person. This girl called you out on being a ***** for messaging her instead of talking to her in class. Follow her advice. For once, it was the woman who was right. You cannot build real physical attraction whilst hiding behind a screen. Real attraction happens with eye contact and physical touching.

Its all about strong eye contact and touching her. Find excuses to touch her. Too many guys get so intimidated by beauty that they treat a girl like a Rembrandt painting, worried that touching her will "spoil" her perfect looks. Start with high fives to build up your confidence, give her a fake palm read etc. When you get a girl into bed, they like it rough. You can't sub-communicate that you will be firm and rough with her if you are afraid to touch her.

 

[Eph]

Well today wasn't the best day but it certainly beats my usual day. Went in with a "what have I got to lose" attitude, and it felt great. First period (Spanish class) I had a little playful argument with Raquel, even though class was quieter than usual. Third period (Chemistry) when I walked by her I poked her.

Sixth period I didn't really expect to talk to Christy since its an exercise class and it really seems like fate is against me on this one but after class as me and a friend were just generally talking about video games (and more specifically about the new xbox) she joined in our little conversation. I could have and should have really brought her into the conversation but I didn't sadly. But I did learn a very important lesson because of her today:

I don't need to find things in common between us to talk to her. The more I talk to her, the more this will happen on its own. I don't need a reason to talk to her - exception being when I (eventually get her number and) text her or message her, since in my (lack of) experience unless you're making sniper shots it really does kill relationships. I don't need to be "invited" into a conversation. And probably most importantly no one will think (nor should I care what they think) I'm weird if I just casually drop into an established conversation with essential strangers.

Also, the ex-plate in my JROTC with Christy also dropped into the conversation I had with my friend today. So, I guess I have to thank her for helping me realize the lessons I learned today. Until today I never realized I don't care when she drops into one of my conversations, she doesn't care when I drop into one of her's, and to be honest I never really notice.

Since I will probably have many more experiences with her (especially since its very likely I'll have her in the same JROTC class next year), I will call her TB for the purpose of this journal.

 

[cordoncordon]

Not to nit pick, though I guess I kinda am, but generally when people on here refer to 'plates', that is in reference to girls you are actually 'spinning', or in other words dating/seeing/fawking. I would refer to these girls in your posts more as 'potentials' or possible plates since they appear to be girls you just seen in class and do not date....yet.


Good luck with them.

 

[Eph]

I kinda got the opposite impression when people on here refer to plates - girls with potential for more - oh well guess it doesn't really matter what they're called.

 

[Eph]

Another interesting day for me. Spanish class was very interesting seeing as how I got a little culo action from Raquel. The class was working on the chalkboard again, and she decides the best way to get by me is to slide her little culo against my pene (you should be able to tell what this word is).

Chemistry we started a lab that we won't finish until Friday, so I went to sit with my lab partner which just so happens to be behind Raquel. She didn't hear the teacher say, "one sheet per group" when he was passing out assignment sheets so when he passed out a different sheet I looked at Raquel and teased her about her previous mistake.

She just gave me a smirk, and held on tight to the sheets she was passing back. I smile back and just say, "give me the papers". Since she didn't obey me I took her pencil and later as we leaving I tapped her on top of her head with my books. She looked at me, and gave me the puppy dog face.

All in all, a lot more kino than I usually do and most importantly a lot of fun. In JROTC class we worked with our fireteams (groups) on our submarines. I wasn't really doing anything but talking to people, and noticed Christy trying to drill a hole in one of the pieces for her fireteam's sub (as was necessary). She got the drill to go through but it was funny to watch since she forced it through and was holding the drill with both hands.

Kinda got "in trouble" with her because I looked at our SMI (Senior Marine Instructor) and said, "this is why little girls shouldn't use power tools". (It really didn't help Christy's case when I found out another girl in the class almost cut one of the guys in her fireteam's fingers with scissors trying to cut electrical tape.) She walked up to me and gave me the "you better not repeat what you just said", "what did you just say"? I had to smile when she asked me that especially considering our SMI covered for me and told her I said girls are awesome.

She looked back at me and said, "girls can do anything guys can do but better". I smiled and said, "yeah, they just have to work harder for it". Not sure how this was relevant but after that she told me, "that's why you're single". I guess that was her way of (playfully) saying, "f you" (since she doesn't curse; another reason I both want and respect her).

I kind of wish I would have said, "feel free to fix that", but instead I had decided to play defense instead of offense and say,"I'm single because I choose to be". Right now it seems like I'm building (good - for the moment) tension with her, but I've got to be careful since I did this with another girl before and I think I did it too much and it started to turn into bad tension.

Funny seeing as how that same girl was messing with me today. I moved seats in our class together (luckily), and stopped talking to her because at that point I thought there was too much negative tension to proceed any further with her. But today in our IT class as she was walking by I was yawning and stretching and she slaps my stomach.

I jumped up fast to pretend to do something about it, and she laughed a little as she walked back to her seat and said something about us being best friends. Funny, she didn't feel that way a month ago.

I also talked to TB a little during class. She walked by me playing with scissors in her hands and I'm just like,"yeah, that's safe". She told me that she does it all the time at home, and I would have said more but I couldn't think of anything so I said nothing. At the end of class, she was tucking her shirt in (I hope), or something by the table me and my fireteam were working at and I said, "ugh, digging in your ass". She smiled a little and said, "and what if I am?". So much potential here but again I said nothing (that I remember).

I feel like I did good today. Good or bad, I had fun at other people's expenses and that's all that really matters.

 

[Eph]

Right now I'm thinking I have a much better chance of making something happen with Raquel than I do Christy. And of course its Christy I actually want a LTR (of course I will let her bring it up exclusivity first) with instead of just a good fvck. Oh well plenty more where she came from. I've just got to find them. Anyway, Spanish was pretty boring, we had an exam so not much talking or kino with Raquel.

Its really been Chemistry class that I've really talked to her and touched her etc. I really don't even think about kino with her anymore, I just do it. If I want to touch her, I do and I will. Today before and after Chemistry she was messing with me in the halls, more than I was to her. We did have a fire, or something, during my IT class so I saw her outside and started messing with her, touching her, etc.

Like usual I didn't really get to talk to Christy during JROTC. I've really got to do something about that. Though I have been teasing her and saying things to or about her when she's near, so its at least something. Somehow she got into a conversation about Doctor Who and said she liked the show, and since I heard her say since I was walking around the class talking instead of working , I just said aloud, "Doctor Who sucks". She didn't hear me of course, until someone else said, "I agree with Eph. Doctor Who sucks".

Since I had turned around right after I had said that, when I heard one of the people in the class say he agreed with me I turned back around to see Christy staring at me with a sort of blank look on her face. Eye to eye, I just smirked and said,"Whats up?". It must have been pretty loud in the class since she didn't hear me the first time. Obviously since she was looking dead at me, she could tell I had said something so when she asked me what I said, I repeated myself. I don't remember what she said after that, if she said anything at all.

I also noticed another girl staring at me in my English class after I asked one of my friends why he randomly handing me a piece of paper. I don't really talk much (if at all) in that class, so I guess she was staring at me because of the thrill of discovering and hearing my voice. A few months ago I noticed another girl in the same class staring at me while I was chosen to read to the class. The second I looked up, she looked away. So yeah guess the rarity of hearing my voice makes them stare.

Actually, come to think of it a lot of girls have been staring at me this week. Its kind of weird. Its more attention than I'm used to, and more that I care for frankly. I've never been an attention-wh0re, mostly because I've always understood (though now better than ever), that no matter who is talking if I open my mouth all eyes are on me.

 

[Eph]

Starting to get into a rut. Although with I'm talking to girls more often now, I feel like I'm doing the same routine. With that said, my day started in Spanish class like usual messing with Raquel. I don't remember what we were talking about, but she ended up saying, "fvck you" (playfully of course), so seeing as how it was Spanish class I repeated what she said back to her in Spanish (Vete a la mierda, for those wondering or curious).

She gave me a half-serious look and then said,"Do I look Mexican to you?". She didn't understand what I had said (it is Spanish 1 after-all; Though I'd taken Spanish class years prior and do a little studying on my own time), but the Mexican student in the class did and started laughing. So, of course she asks him what I said. I don't remember what he said, but I don't think he told her what I actually said.

A few minutes later, I noticed she was wearing a short shirt and since her lower back was showing I decided to up the ante a little and poke her there with a pencil. She jumped, I laughed and then she (I'd assume) half-serious asked me what I was doing. I took it as a sh!t test, and completely ignored the question. Instead I asked her if she was jumpy much. No answer.

We worked on the chalkboard again, and I messed with her about her spelling something wrong. At first she didn't care, and just said whatever but after the teacher had corrected another student's answers, Raquel told me she didn't spell anything wrong. This is where I need to learn to stop. Instead of just saying whatever, I continued and almost started an argument between us.

No talk or play between during Chemistry, though I did see her walking with a few friends the way I usually walk home after school. I've never seen her after-school before walking that way. Out of the ordinary.

In JROTC class, again nothing happening with Christy. I need to do something fast, or I can kiss my chances with her goodbye. I did notice her gravitate towards me after I commented on something she had on, but I don't think she heard me.

At lunch I noticed my ex-oneitis. It seems like she's always staring at me now or looking by me. Since I still have small ties with her, and she is still in the cards for a future fvckbuddy I'll call her KB for the purposes of this journal. Anyway, when I looked over I saw her friend either on her knees in between KB's legs or laying down her head on KB's legs. Either way it looked weird as hell. Makes me wonder, especially considering during a previous conversation with her she told me she could be a lesbian (or bi or experiment or something; I don't remember) if she wanted to.

Anyway, when I noticed it I pointed it out to my friends (one of which actually dated her twice; both times she broke up with him) I was sitting with. We joked about it for a bit and KB eventually noticed me staring at her. From almost across the lunchroom she yelled out,"what the fvck are you looking at?" It was (and always is) so loud in there, it's amazing I heard her. I took it as a sh!t test but again ignored it and looked away.

Since earlier I've thought about it a bit (unintentionally), and a part of me wanted to neg her (more like cuss her out), and the other part wanted to make a joke about her getting her "carpet" (in another conversation she told me she shaves it clean) chewed on by another girl.

A lot of time has passed since I dropped her from my life. A lot of time wasted. I've known her since 6th grade. 7th grade I could never look at her directly because I always thought she looked so good. 8th grade was really when I started to acknowledge my feelings for her. I asked her out right before we started 9th grade, which was also right after her and one of my closest friends broke up. Obviously I got rejected, and she gave me a bullsh!t excuse about why "it wouldn't work out". But to pour salt in the wound, she started dating my friend again right after I asked her out.

When they finally broke up again, he told me they started going back out again because she told him she was still in love with him. :crackup: I've watched her go through guys like it was nothing. She has no problem whatsoever getting a boyfriend and each one she says she loves. The last two (recently broke up with her ex) have ended in a series of whiny facebook posts about love and broken hearts, etc. A lot of you would probably say to completely forget about her, but I want nothing more than a nice fvck from her at this point. I guess what I really want is closure. I guess I just need to know if it was because of my lack of game, or if it was just me that I couldn't get her.

To be honest I don't expect it to happen, which is part of the reason I'm not pursuing further.

 

[Eph]

May 13, 2013

Well, today was interesting. Talking to Raquel has become something of a habit, and the more I do it, the easier it gets. Though I must admit I feel I'm losing that calm, cool, and collected manner/demeanor she once knew. I'm higher-energy around her now. Guess that's just how it works when people get to know me. Quiet, calm, cool, and collected and first but as they get to know me more, I become this high-energy hyperactive guy whose always making jokes and never really taking things too seriously.

Oh well. Anyway, like I said I'm talking to Raquel almost daily but they are usually quick short-lived conversations. One thing I've noticed is I'm quicker to speak and less mindful about what I say and how others think of me. Like today when our Spanish teacher told us to practice orally (she has a tendency to say things like this a lot), I said, "yeah, come on Raquel. Let's practice orally." It took Raquel a minute to realize what I meant, but she laughed a bit nonetheless while calling me, "nasty".

I may be, but I'm no where as near as her picture on Facebook of her licking her friend's cheek and kissing another friend on the cheek. I'm not even sure what the third picture was of. :crackup: This girl is something else.

One of the most interesting things I observed today was my ex-oneitis started dating someone new. Believe me I could care less, but with living close to her, having classes and lunch with her, AND having her on Facebook info tends to get around. What was interesting about it though is the fact that about a month ago she broke up with her ex and up until now it seems all she's posted on facebook is about broken hearts, wasting time loving someone who doesn't love you back (talk about irony), "without you I am nothing", blah blah etc. And yet she's already going out with someone new.

The thing is at this point I know her all too well. She's going to fall in "love" with this guy, they will date for about a year, something will happen, she'll break up with him, and then complain/whine. The cycle has repeated itself for the many years I've known her. Each boyfriend she "loves" while it's fun, and then completely despises the guy afterward.

I guess that's just how it is with the pretty ones (even more so with the one's who have fat @$$es). Through all the $#!t she's put me through though, I'd still like to lie her down and give her the night of her life. Petty ego I guess, oh well I've got bigger fish to fry at the moment.

Like Christy. I've been trying to talk to her and it seems she tries with me every time she gets a chance but damn. I'm not as quick-witted when it comes to her. Well, at least when she talks to me. I'm a little better when I start it, but as of now it seems like she always finishes it.

Today, at the end of class I noticed she pulled out a yogurt (another thing we have in common I guess) so as she's walking by I say, "I know you've got another one of those". If she did say something, I didn't hear it. Damn. I've got another month to make something happen with her, and then it's summer break. She'll likely be going to the same school next year but I relied on second chances too much in my life.

There's got to be something I can do to jumpstart all of this with her.This all feels like a car that won't start. We're both "turning the ignition", but our "car" won't start just yet. It feels like we're both trying a bit but right now I'm putting more effort into it than her. Not good. Then again, I've noticed she doesn't really talk to guys unless they talk to them first and she doesn't really flirt for that matter. At least not when I'm around her.

In fact the only guy in class she really talks to is this one guy. Though from what I can tell, he's just her shoulder to cry on. I hate the feeling of envy/jealousy that she talks to him more than me, but at the same time I understand he's a necessary pawn in the game of Kings.

 

[Eph]

Well today was a good day turned into a $hitter. Didn't really talk to Raquel today at all. Spanish class, I was pretty much my quiet usual self. But right before Chemistry class Raquel was walking towards me pretending to shoot me and saying "bang bang" (playful little slut isn't she :yes: ), so without saying anything I just stopped in front of her and didn't let her by. She tried pushing me out of the way a couple times, but the last time she tried I grabbed her arm for a few seconds, threw it down, smiled and kept walking. So a little playful kino today. Talk is indeed cheap.

Day went by as usual until JROTC class. I actually talked to Christy for once, or rather she talked to me. Before she did though, she was standing in front of me talking with the Master Sergeant (the class MI - Marine Instructor), so I had the perfect view of her backside. Mmmm, she is just my type of woman. Not the prettiest (but certainly not ugly), big (or rather fat) culo, short, somewhat thick, and (apparently) nerdy as all Hell.

Haha, well anyway she was talking to one of the guys in my fireteam about a show and how she wants to dress up as one of the characters and go to a cosplay convention/party as well as how she wants to marry one of the characters - interesting considering I consider her to be a little more "traditional", non-slutty, etc and this character she wants to marry is (in her own words) a pervert. Since I was standing right by her talking to a friend, I just looked at her and laughed and the second I do look at her she looks me back in the eyes.

Then a little later she was showing the guy a funny picture about a character in the show that looked like Hulk Hogan. All I did was look at her and she immediately shows me. I just responded with a slight laugh and told her I saw the picture before.

Today really has been mostly body-language and some kino for me. I've done little talking to anyone other than friends. I won't go into why today turned into crap though. But at least I've got something I can work with. Maybe I'm overthinking it, but it really does seem like Christy is putting some effort into me. Hmmm, she needs to be "rewarded" for starting a conversation with me haha.

 

[Eph]

May 15, 2013

Man this week's going by fast. Not all bad though. Spanish class, I had a lot on my mind so I didn't talk much, but this one guy kept messing with me. Its kind of annoying coming from the other side. But Hell, I stop when I see something's up with someone. He just kept at it. Raquel talked to me briefly to see if I did the Chemistry homework, which I ended up giving to her. Thinking of it now, she could have been trying to see if I would 'comply' to something small to test me but then again she actually asked if she could see it.

Experience really is the best teacher, since I'm already on the topic, its teaching me the difference between a compliance test and a genuine question. I remember my ex-oneitis telling me, I should hold something for her. At the time I think I just looked at her for a second, and said "fine". Experience has taught me so much, if I could only internalize it. Actually its probably fairer to say my ex-oneitis has taught me so much. The one thing I can actually thank her for.

Pretty usual day, until JROTC class. We went outside for PT (physical trainning), and at the end did Indian runs. Christy ended up messing up, and me and my friend kind of picked on her for it during the run. Afterwards, she was walking near us saying she was tired. I heard it but without even looking at her I just said, "from what? Messing up?" I didn't really expect her to hear me, but since she did she had to respond. Nothing but, "nobody asked for your input." and something about my comment being unnecessary or something haha. Without saying a word, my friend made fun of her using his fingers, so I was just like, "so you don't see what he's doing. He's making fun of you", all while she's asking him what he said/doing and lightly punching him either on the arm or back.

Son of a b!tch gets more kino from her than I do (currently) Anyway, after she hit him, I said, "he said, "Tú eres una idiota". But of course she had to get smart and tell me I didn't say it right. Ha, whatever I know I did. Oh well, for better or worse my conversations with her are more frequent, spontaneous, and longer. Now I just need to get some kino in. 3 weeks to get some kino in. Then Summer I'll ask her out. Assuming everything goes the way I want it to, but we all know life always goes off-course.

Guess I'll see how this all plays out in the end. Let's hope its in my favor.

 

[Eph]

May 19, 2013

So apparently something happened with the plate who had a boyfriend and they broke up. For the purpose of this journal I'll call her Mary. She always seems interested when we talk, but she is flat and just generally not an incredible looker. However a friend told me she told him she's a freak in bed. So I guess that could make up for being so damn flat.

Guess I'll see if she's still interested tomorrow. Also, commented on one of Christy's Facebook posts over the weekend and she liked it so... Lol there's that.

 

[Eph]

May 24, 2013

Man I just feel on top of the world when I don't "fap". Not a lot happened today. Almost ran Raquel over getting to Spanish this morning but other than a half laugh, half smile nothing more really happened with her today. Can't really remember when but I caught Christy staring at me (I think) sometime today when i walked by. Had to get to class on time so obviously had to break eye contact but it lasted a good few seconds.

Then during JROTC class it was so much easier to talk to her than it usually is. She was eating something so i told her to let me get some but she didn't so i dropped the conversation there. When she went to throw away the bag though, i said, "you couldn't give me one little cookie...or whatever it was". From what i remember, she just shook her head. Fvck, oh well its whatever. Unfortunately though it's not whenever since I've got another 8 days or so of school. About 5 of them i have class with her.

I've GOT to get something started soon if I want anything to happen with her, and on top of that it's got to be in person since she pretty much called me out on not talking to her in class.

 

[Eph]

May 29, 2013

So something interesting actually happened today for once. On my way to school, I passed by three girls and as I did one of them just started talking to me and following me. I noticed once she did her friends came along. The entire way this girl is just trying her hardest to talk to me and get her friends to, apparently, "stop recording" her. Something like this has only happened once before so I was a little nervous but I think I played it off fine.

My voice is always deeper, and I speak lower and slower when I'm nervous for whatever reason so it can only help. I found out they actually went to my school and, as I could guess were a grade under me. So once we got to the front of the building, the one that was talking to me pretty much introduced me to another, MUCH better looking friend. Though I kept walking, she kind of caught up to me and told me how fat her friend's @$$ was and how I probably had already seen it (think I had too). I didn't look when she wanted me to, but I could see that her friend's @$$ was pretty fat. The one thing that surprised me though was how quick her friend turned around to show me her @$$ when she told her to.

Since I had told them I wasn't walking with friends because I left early to get breakfast (which is true), I knew I'd see them in the cafeteria. So a few minutes before I leave I see her friends (minus the one she met up with at school) walk in and I noticed not only were they better looking (not by much - they were all ugly :crackup: ) but they had much better looking a$$es than her.

That was the highlight of my day since I didn't really talk to any other girls today but I did learn something from the experience: Enough value and some (most? All?) will leave or cheat on their boyfriends for you. This girl said she had a boyfriend and yet was fvcking with me like he didn't exist. She also was telling me sh!t like, "your girlfriend won't know" since I gave her the IHAGF line. Well one good thing came out of it: I had a pack of wild animals following me to school and I saw one chick I know see me. So, now I've got a story to DHV with, some social proof, preselection and all they good jazz.

 

[Eph]

May 30, 2013

Overall today was a great day. Didn't really talk to anyone during class, but messed with Raquel in the halls and these two Mexican chicks in my IT class when I saw them after school. I don't talk to them much anymore. Speaking of my IT class, I passed the third test for my certification so I'll get the actual certification paper next week. If everything goes according to plan, I'll have 3 national certifications in 2015, as well as an A in a college IT class (not related to the one in in now) and a few college credits. Too bad I don't plan on going to college. The bright side is that these certifications will help my career plan in the long term.

Back to plates, I'm not expecting anything to happen at this point with Christy bit it seems I haven't missed the window of opportunity just yet as she was staring at me during our JROTC class for a minute or two multiple times throughout the hour. Not the first time I've noticed her doing this either.Almost seems like she was signaling me to come talk to her.

 

[Eph]

June 3, 2013

Today was almost as usual as it gets. But one thing I found a little disappointing was Mary (the plate who had then broken up with her boyfriend), from what I can take from a recent Facebook post, is that she and her bf are back together now. What was disappointing was that today (that post was yesterday), she started messing with me again.

I feel as though I'm nothing more than insurance in case they break up for good. Oh well, I could seriously care less. Like I said previously, she's not anywhere near "hot", although not ugly, and flat as all hell.

I did realize how much I appreciate a woman with some damn manners today though. It was after JROTC class when I held the door open for a good looking girl who I noticed was walking toward the door when I walked out of it. What made me realize it was when she actually said thank you. There have been two many times I'll hold the door open for someone and not get so much as a thanks from them.

It slightly annoys me. This girl I actually know - sort of. I was in gym class as a replacement class for JROTC for a few days and I sat next to her and we had a very short conversation. Looking back I should have done more, but too late now.

Also tried to talk to Christy but all I got out of her was a thumbs up. Something I do from time to time. Maybe my window of opportunity has closed with her, but I'll see.

Last but not least, I've realized I always have a few girls open me first - including Christy. All girls I could have pursued further, but ultimately didn't. Not one has been extraordinarily attractive, but I've had my fair share of girls I could have done something with. Feels good knowing I'm a little better with the ladies than I've realized.

 

[Eph]

June 4, 2013

Things just keep getting better. For starters no fap + red bull is really helping. Whether placebo or not I feel better and my game is a lot better. Secondly, it seems Raquel is using Chemistry to talk to me during Spanish class. So, I might have to take her out somewhere over the summer. Then later I had to take a later lunch today, and so I sat with another friend. When I sat down some random chick was all like,hey, its Carl. Carl isn't my real name but I told the one chick and her friends who followed to school the one day and opened me it was.

I swear this girl today wasn't one of the three who I had told my name was Carl. I'll give her points though for being smart enough to ask if my real name was Carl. So I guess I've started to build a school wide rep. Later in my IT class the teacher was giving everyone who had passed the tests and gotten their certificates candy. I didn't really feel like having candy so I told her (while grabbing a snickers bar), I don't eat candy and an ex plate in the class standing next to me told me I could give it to her. I looked at her, smiled a bit and said I don't like you. I looked back as I was walking away and tossed my snicker to another student and the ex plate said she knew I'd do that. I probably seemed butt hurt but whatever, I could care less. Don't hate her, don't like her.

Fun "ended" in JROTC class but a lesson was reinforced: no girl is perfect. I was surprised when I saw Christy walk in in a see-through shirt. There wasn't much to see since (I think) she was wearing a black bra underneath the black see-through shirt. Never thought I'd see her in something like that, but there she was. I still feel as though she's a lot better than these other h0es. Then again she's a lot like me, so that's probably why I feel that way. For whatever reason I feel she wanted me to talk to her today though.

I mean she looked so bored in class and she wasn't talking to her beta friend. I won't call him a "beta phaggot" since he's actual pretty cool and I feel he could actually get girls - just not Christy since they talk A LOT, and I've heard them get into more personal problems. Correction: I've heard her talk to him about her problems.

One last final day in class with her on Thursday. I told myself I would talk to her all this week, and I'd ask her out in person and I plan on keeping at least one of those promises. One thing I've learned - mostly from her and a little from my ex oneitis - is that you need some form of a preexisting relationship before texting/messaging becomes a viable tool for setting up dates.

Hopefully and with a little bit of luck she'll say yes. Come to think of it, there's a good chance I'll see her at commencement on Sunday so I at least have two days left with her. Another thing I've learned is its best to set things up in advance, so that's what I'm planning to do. Wish me luck.

 

[Eph]

Not much happened today although I did kinda just realize, as hard as I'm going after Christy, Raquel is going after me. Today, I wasn't really in class during Spanish so after she opens me about what period it is. I got to class about 30 minutes before it ended so she could have asked anyone else, but no I was just there so she asked me. Then during Chemistry, I look up from my desk and over near her and the second I do she looks up and at me.

Then she immediately makes the sad puppy face and pouts her lips. I just assumed it was due to her saying she was going to fail the exam in Chemistry during Spanish class earlier, so I laughed and almost immediately she smiles at me. So I'll try to set something up over the summer. At this point the ball is almost completely in my court, since I'm almost certain we won't have any classes together next year unless she happens to take another Spanish class. Completely up to me to keep her interest high now.

Must admit if things don't work out with Christy and things end up good with Raquel, I feel kind of like an a$$hole knowing I only want her for sex. Then again that seems to be what she wants as well so, guess I'll learn to deal with it.

 

[macallik]

This reminds me of my high school years. I think you might do well to try and meet some new women as well. If you have these women in your life day-after-day, and don't make a real move, tension is building which is great, but it does make it harder and harder to step up to the plate and make a bold move.

If you have multiple women entering your life, you can realize the potential and possibilities, and then it would not be as difficult making an actual move on these chicks... if you chose to do so. If you meet new chicks, you might tell yourself that the current chicks you have aren't even worth pursuing any more...