It started with a usual hanging out with me and my best friends. One of them is girl, I guess you can see where this is going from here. As usual we just get a few bottles together between us and drank our worries away. She's the most light-weight of us so it's no surprise that she get's good first, and then she starts coming on to me.
What I mean is that she'll ask me "Is there anyone you are into lately?" and then I'd answer with a truthful "No, there's no one I'm interested in." Then she'd say "what about me?"
This goes on for a good while longer, similar subtle questions and my truthful answers. At one point I remind her we're best-friends and she gives a disappointed sigh and it seems like that would be it for the night.
But then I get drunk, partially because of her insistence that I keep drinking more and more, and because there was a part of me that just wanted to let go, lose control. She ends up giving me a back massage with my shirt off, good thing my other friend was there or else things may have gotten a bit too messy.
After that it was time for us to go, and because we were at my friend's house, me and my female best-friend left together in a cab. Again, she starts asking me the questions although more direct like "Wouldn't you want to go further with me?" and she'd say things like she always thought I was good looking.
I've got to admit it, she's a great looking girl and she's very smart as well, there have been times where I thought about going further with her but for me the friendship came first, until now. Simply put she convinced me to see things differently, that there was a possibility that I thought was impossible. So, this time I answer yes to her questions, that I would like to be more then friends.
I hold her hand for the rest of the cab ride and as she get's off at her place I kiss her. As I get home and sober up I start to realize what happened, and I'm happy. I've been single for a while, and to think that one of the closest people in the world to me also wants to be my lover is a great feeling.
And then morning comes and I get a text from her saying how horrible her hang-over is, and maybe this was my mistake; but I answer that mine is pretty bad too and then I ask her what she felt about last night.
She says she thought about it, and doesn't know if being more then friends is the right thing to do. She doesn't want to ruin the friendship. I tell her how I feel about her after that night, that what I did with her was what I meant to do. Feeling that things won't go well for me if I continued the text conversation, I add that this isn't the time to talk about it, and definitely not through text. She agrees that we should talk about it the next time we meet.
So, what do you guys think? I'm confused because right now it seems like she didn't mean anything she said or did, but I don't believe that her one-time interest in me could have sprouted out of bull****. Anyways, I plan to be bold and confident, to stick to my plan, and to tell her how I feel the next time I see her (which is this weekend). But before this happens I want your advice; is there anything I can do, or am I doomed to fail, because unless I can somehow convince her to feel the way she felt, it looks like her answer will be a stern no.
What I mean is that she'll ask me "Is there anyone you are into lately?" and then I'd answer with a truthful "No, there's no one I'm interested in." Then she'd say "what about me?"
This goes on for a good while longer, similar subtle questions and my truthful answers. At one point I remind her we're best-friends and she gives a disappointed sigh and it seems like that would be it for the night.
But then I get drunk, partially because of her insistence that I keep drinking more and more, and because there was a part of me that just wanted to let go, lose control. She ends up giving me a back massage with my shirt off, good thing my other friend was there or else things may have gotten a bit too messy.
After that it was time for us to go, and because we were at my friend's house, me and my female best-friend left together in a cab. Again, she starts asking me the questions although more direct like "Wouldn't you want to go further with me?" and she'd say things like she always thought I was good looking.
I've got to admit it, she's a great looking girl and she's very smart as well, there have been times where I thought about going further with her but for me the friendship came first, until now. Simply put she convinced me to see things differently, that there was a possibility that I thought was impossible. So, this time I answer yes to her questions, that I would like to be more then friends.
I hold her hand for the rest of the cab ride and as she get's off at her place I kiss her. As I get home and sober up I start to realize what happened, and I'm happy. I've been single for a while, and to think that one of the closest people in the world to me also wants to be my lover is a great feeling.
And then morning comes and I get a text from her saying how horrible her hang-over is, and maybe this was my mistake; but I answer that mine is pretty bad too and then I ask her what she felt about last night.
She says she thought about it, and doesn't know if being more then friends is the right thing to do. She doesn't want to ruin the friendship. I tell her how I feel about her after that night, that what I did with her was what I meant to do. Feeling that things won't go well for me if I continued the text conversation, I add that this isn't the time to talk about it, and definitely not through text. She agrees that we should talk about it the next time we meet.
So, what do you guys think? I'm confused because right now it seems like she didn't mean anything she said or did, but I don't believe that her one-time interest in me could have sprouted out of bull****. Anyways, I plan to be bold and confident, to stick to my plan, and to tell her how I feel the next time I see her (which is this weekend). But before this happens I want your advice; is there anything I can do, or am I doomed to fail, because unless I can somehow convince her to feel the way she felt, it looks like her answer will be a stern no.