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Master Don Juan
- Joined
- Apr 15, 2003
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This isn't a bash or put-down...there seem to have been a lot of them flying around lately.
Lately, I feel as though being on this forum feels more like dragging an anchor than getting a boost-up. I've been sitting here reading these threads and finding I know all the "right answers" from the DJ Bible and articles and all this crap, often before I even see the replies.
Thing is, I'm still a virgin.
I think I'm too deep into the philosophy/psychology of attraction. The more people discuss here, the more I start to form these grand theories which help me make sense of the male-female dynamic, but do NOTHING to make me a part of it. I've "thought myself into a cage," and I feel like I'm sacrificing the primal experience in favor of a rational understanding of it...a rational understanding which can never be complete because many of the dynamics of attraction and sexuality are beyond rational explanation.
Reason is born of instinct, not vice-versa. Thinking and philosophy are powerful tools, but when you use them, you limit yourself. You give up the freedom to act as you are driven to. The AFC "philosophy" is the one that most come here with and they're quick to shed it, but rather than experience the freedom, they quickly build a new philosophy, a "DJ Philosophy", in its place to protect them from the scary uncertainty of reality.
I've done this. I've shed the AFC way of thinking and built a new Don-Juan manly philosophy in my head. And I see myself looking at this wonder I've constructed and saying, "now what?"
I need to quiet the voices in my head...to start using reason to complement my instincts rather than fight them. Unfortunately, the only way I can do this is STILL alcohol. When I drink, and I can't think straight, I am fun, entertaining, carefree, and sensual. When I am sober, I am rational, worrying, careful, and androgenous.
Sometimes I honestly don't know whether this forum is helping or hurting me in that regard. On one hand, it clears up many misconceptions that people have. On the other hand, it leads them to engage in further philosophy in order to compensate for and protect them from their free, instinctual nature.
Thomas Jefferson once said, "those Who Desire To Give Up Freedom In Order To Gain Security, Will Not Have, Nor Do They Deserve, Either One." Sometimes I feel like by getting on this forum and discussing concepts like attraction and desire and building these little philosophies to control how I interpret them is akin to giving up my freedom to act as an instinctual male in order to find security in understanding my nature.
I know now what Pook was talking about. I never read this article all the way through because he babbles for a good long while, but this is really one of the better pieces from the DJ Bible:
http://www.sosuave.com/vBulletin/showthread.php?s=&threadid=17008
Lately, I feel as though being on this forum feels more like dragging an anchor than getting a boost-up. I've been sitting here reading these threads and finding I know all the "right answers" from the DJ Bible and articles and all this crap, often before I even see the replies.
Thing is, I'm still a virgin.
I think I'm too deep into the philosophy/psychology of attraction. The more people discuss here, the more I start to form these grand theories which help me make sense of the male-female dynamic, but do NOTHING to make me a part of it. I've "thought myself into a cage," and I feel like I'm sacrificing the primal experience in favor of a rational understanding of it...a rational understanding which can never be complete because many of the dynamics of attraction and sexuality are beyond rational explanation.
Reason is born of instinct, not vice-versa. Thinking and philosophy are powerful tools, but when you use them, you limit yourself. You give up the freedom to act as you are driven to. The AFC "philosophy" is the one that most come here with and they're quick to shed it, but rather than experience the freedom, they quickly build a new philosophy, a "DJ Philosophy", in its place to protect them from the scary uncertainty of reality.
I've done this. I've shed the AFC way of thinking and built a new Don-Juan manly philosophy in my head. And I see myself looking at this wonder I've constructed and saying, "now what?"
I need to quiet the voices in my head...to start using reason to complement my instincts rather than fight them. Unfortunately, the only way I can do this is STILL alcohol. When I drink, and I can't think straight, I am fun, entertaining, carefree, and sensual. When I am sober, I am rational, worrying, careful, and androgenous.
Sometimes I honestly don't know whether this forum is helping or hurting me in that regard. On one hand, it clears up many misconceptions that people have. On the other hand, it leads them to engage in further philosophy in order to compensate for and protect them from their free, instinctual nature.
Thomas Jefferson once said, "those Who Desire To Give Up Freedom In Order To Gain Security, Will Not Have, Nor Do They Deserve, Either One." Sometimes I feel like by getting on this forum and discussing concepts like attraction and desire and building these little philosophies to control how I interpret them is akin to giving up my freedom to act as an instinctual male in order to find security in understanding my nature.
I know now what Pook was talking about. I never read this article all the way through because he babbles for a good long while, but this is really one of the better pieces from the DJ Bible:
http://www.sosuave.com/vBulletin/showthread.php?s=&threadid=17008
I'm not sure what to do...lately I've been depressed, felt a lot weaker, a lot less motivated. I wonder if it'd be a good idea to just take a break.Nature: I wonder if you would talk then till doomsday? Your followers, your philosophers, lawyers, academics, prattle and rattle on just like you! You are completely unaware of the seasons of life that color and sparkle the world. But I hesitate!
Mind: Like the flow and ebb of the moon.
Nature: Quiet you! Weineger and others of his ilk made good attempts at trying to discover my secrets. They tried to 'pop' themselves out of my earthly cycle and peer upon my work with the eyes of a god. Melancholy is my vengeance. Nieztche and Keirkegard, I drove those two mad. For Weineger I made his life so unpleasant that he had to shoot himself.