Depressed , Sad , need help guys

[DarkHeart91]

hello guys , first of all you ll see that my english isn't that good , im from a North african country but i love this forum since this is summer i spend everyday 6 to 8 hours reading posts and Experiences , anyway my story began with my first girl , i mean my first relationship , never had sex but i did it with this one , we went the same colluege , the story began when she add me on fb , we talked like friends etc , but with time i felt like im her crush , the girl even try to gave me her fb password , her interest lvl was so high on me , days passed so i figured out that it would be my gold nugget since i never had sex ,i made my first move , get my first kiss from her , the girl seems that she die for me she txt me , call me alltime , she invited me one night to a her house , she told me that her dream is to spend the night together since she live in the house alone and their parents live in another city , i had my first sexual experience , i ll never forget it , so after that day , seem that the girl is a perver or dunnow , she invited me all time and we made sex 3 times a day so far everyday .

3 month felt like her interest lvl drop down day by day i admit that because i went needy seeking approval from her call her a lot etc , the girl start to disrecpect me and call me trash , **** , but i don't said anything about it , i felt like im losing control , we lost contact for two weeks , she went to their parents house , when she get back she call me again , we made sex of course she admitted that it was the best one we made is so far , the next day we went to the university i noticed that she flirt with some guys , i behaved insecure , angry , and i move on without talking to her , i remember i called her more than 30 times but she keeped ignoring me , then she txt me that is with some girls and i need to stop calling her , i felt like she is lying so i went to the university and guess what she was waiting another guy .

this guy is a Big AFC , she knew him for more than 5 years seem that he love her a lot and get friend zoned from that time until now ,i know that because she talked about him when we had sex onetime and showed me his txts etc .

anyway , i was so ****ing mad when i discovered that she was lying to me and was waiting for him when i was like crazy worried why she didn't replay my calls ,

so i called her again but this time she replay and I was behind her she replay , i told her where are u , she lied again and told her look im behind you and she saw me coming to her , and i slap the **** out of her , the guy didn't do anything , i said to her now its over and i move on .

the **** move that i made is that the next day i went to her house and begged and apologized for what ive done , i even cried in front of her to give me another time but she didn't , i had her fb password and guess what she said to that guy that she finally she get rid of the trash , so i went the trash i get mad and i blocked her on fb and cut all contact to get my dignity back , 3 days the girl start to blow my ****ing phone with calls and txt that she missed me and she made the mistake to letting me go etc that was a boost of my ego , but i made the **** move by taking her back , it was the last day in the university so she got back to her home , 2 weeks passed the girl went to their old behavor , disrespect treating me like a a second class citizen, and i continue to stick around or tolerate it , so i started to do the same , i ignored her too she got mad and she blocked me on facebook .

after one month of not seeing her she call me yesterday we spent 5 hours together before she get back to their home , she told me that she still love me , and she don't want to lose me from her life cause i told her that i cant be just a friend and i felt her fear of losing me , cause she know that i ll do it , i still love this girl but she treated me like **** , i still remember what she told me yesterday , i didn't find what im looking on you but i love you and she get back to their home .

im sure that she still have feeling for me she deblocked me on fb and sent me an invitation yesterday , she was online for about 10 hours on fb & i was counting hours & waiting her to talk with, im sure she talking with other guys and then she sent a link of a film and told me that i need to watch it because it look like our story , and keep ignoring me.

i feel pain , i want to die really i didn't sleep , didnt eat from yesterday because she make me feel unworthy , iwant to get back my dignity and my self esteem cause i feel like **** , im planned to blocking her and cutting all contact with her & im sure that it gonna make her like a crazy , i want to put all blame on her and make her regret losing me
should i block her on fb or keep her on my fb and stop talking with her , but i don't want give her that because i don't want be like the other guy and get friendzoned , planning to send her this message : i still want you , but it doesn' work for me , its time to move on and i really mean it , i respect your choise so respect mine too , do not contact me ever & i ll do the same "
what do you think guys please ,help me i have nobody to talk

 

[asa_don]

your post looks like a word search, use some pargraphs so we can read the thing.

i just skimmed your text until i got to the bottom

acting afc will screw your chances with women, dont send her anything at all, she isnt going to care about you, she isnt going to care what you have to say, sending her anything like that will make her laugh at you, it wont matter to her, you dont need to tell her you aren't going to talk to her, just dont talk to her anymore

dont send her anything.

 

[DarkHeart91]

your post looks like a word search, use some pargraphs so we can read the thing.

i just skimmed your text until i got to the bottom

acting afc will screw your chances with women, dont send her anything at all, she isnt going to care about you, she isnt going to care what you have to say, sending her anything like that will make her laugh at you, it wont matter to her, you dont need to tell her you aren't going to talk to her, just dont talk to her anymore

dont send her anything.

Thanks so much for the replay , i have nobody to talk , and it kills me , it even make me want to cry so much , i don't want to remove her from my life , but i don't want to be just a friend , i want to get back the power , i know she isnt good for me , and im better without her , i know she will keep disrespecting me if we get back together , but i need to man up and get my selfpride from this ***** and i dont know how

 

[ImprovingJuan]

she just wants to keep you as her toy. she wants attention and she knows that she can get it easily from you without giving anything in return. dont expect her to change, it's you who need to change.

just MOVE ON. NEXT her. and never talk to her again. Follow your gut instincts.You'll never get pu*** from this one again. You entered the dreaded FRIEND ZONE.

 

[asa_don]

Thanks so much for the replay , i have nobody to talk , and it kills me , it even make me want to cry so much , i don't want to remove her from my life , but i don't want to be just a friend , i want to get back the power , i know she isnt good for me , and im better without her , i know she will keep disrespecting me if we get back together , but i need to man up and get my selfpride from this ***** and i dont know how

no problem man, dont get back with her at all, sending her stuff like that will hurt you more if she sends you back something hurtful.

its tough going thru it on your end but you have to suck it up, you cant let one woman run your life and ruin your happiness, other girls will treat you better than her.

do some things to take your mind off her, build up your confidence, go out and meet other girls.

women like this are like a cancer, you need to cut them out of your lives, the pain they give you will keep spreading

 

[DarkHeart91]

sending her stuff like that will hurt you more if she sends you back something hurtful.

sadely she already did it , she know in her mind that she can get me back anytime she want and manupilat me , i want to remove this idea from her & move on , i want to remove this pain from my life , if only i could die to stop this pain , my life is ruined really

 

[ImprovingJuan]

sadely she already did it , she know in her mind that she can get me back anytime she want and manupilat me , i want to remove this idea from her & move on , i want to remove this pain from my life , if only i could die to stop this pain , my life is ruined really

your gut is telling you to move on and forget her, your AFC side is telling you to keep struggling for a lost case. If you want to be her emotional tampon or the friend she will never f*** or instead meeting up with other girls, spending your time doing stuff you like (career, hobbies), this is entirely up to you.

You know the right path to follow or else you wouldnt be here.

 

[DarkHeart91]

she just wants to keep you as her toy. she wants attention and she knows that she can get it easily from you without giving anything in return. dont expect her to change, it's you who need to change.

just MOVE ON. NEXT her. and never talk to her again. Follow your gut instincts.You'll never get pu*** from this one again. You entered the dreaded FRIEND ZONE.

thanks so much for the replay man I completely agree with you she know how to do it but her feeling still uncleared toward me & that's what make me frustrated i don't want her to forget me , what i should i do , should i block her on fb or keep her on my friend list & ignoring her , i knw she will be mad if i block her , the next 3 month she will come back , i want to keep her like a sexbuddy in the future , because i feel like i control her in sex , i remember she did anything i ask her when we made sex

 

[ImprovingJuan]

forget what she might think. just forget about her completely. if she wants you let her come to you (i highly doubt it).

look at what your saying? all this for one girl? i know its hard, i've been through that, but think about it: is she really worth your suffering?

 

[DarkHeart91]

thank my man i apperciat your help , i need to man up , its time to move on and save my dignity, this biatch don't worth my time & energy , i ll not block her on fb she will think that im hurting & i had no balls to face it , i will be the bold man **** emotions if only i can cut them from me 4ever , Thanks again bro