I was an AFC and a nerd when I finished high school and completed my first degree. I transferred universities and with my new course, promised myself I'd never be that guy again.
Things went pretty well at first. I became a pretty popular figure; well recognized and my social status was sky high.Yet the higher you fly the harder you fall. I never managed to get a handle on my AFC behavior so now I end my degree being essentially single and hence not taking advantage of being young and getting around.
Even worse I have come to realise is that while my social status was high, I never forged real friendships. I know and see many these students now have gone on to form tight circles of friendships; friendships that I to be honest, do not have and sometimes want more than having picked up chicks.
Lastly yep, you guessed it. That AFC behavior got back to me big time. I'd have so many of these girls wrapped around my finger but I only ever slept with one who turned out to be a psycho. Even worse was the few girls who were LTR material.
I apologize if this sounds like a pity rant but I do not know what to do. It's been ages and I just cannot seem to get over this dark cloud that is hovering above me. Essentially I feel I've wasted my last few years as I basically walk out with nothing I feel is valuable to me. How can I get over this?
The thing is my degree is medical based. The high study and stress load takes it's toll on your social circle outside of university. I have essentially lost many of those I use to have and it does not help I start my internship in a few weeks time so I just feel I've lost everything I thought I'd ever want.
Money, fame and status are not things that rank high with me. I guess you could say I am that kind of hippie-type drifter. Yet it just sucks that I can walk through university and see guys who you'd call geeks with girlfriends or other guys who seem to have it naturally down pack.
Things went pretty well at first. I became a pretty popular figure; well recognized and my social status was sky high.Yet the higher you fly the harder you fall. I never managed to get a handle on my AFC behavior so now I end my degree being essentially single and hence not taking advantage of being young and getting around.
Even worse I have come to realise is that while my social status was high, I never forged real friendships. I know and see many these students now have gone on to form tight circles of friendships; friendships that I to be honest, do not have and sometimes want more than having picked up chicks.
Lastly yep, you guessed it. That AFC behavior got back to me big time. I'd have so many of these girls wrapped around my finger but I only ever slept with one who turned out to be a psycho. Even worse was the few girls who were LTR material.
I apologize if this sounds like a pity rant but I do not know what to do. It's been ages and I just cannot seem to get over this dark cloud that is hovering above me. Essentially I feel I've wasted my last few years as I basically walk out with nothing I feel is valuable to me. How can I get over this?
The thing is my degree is medical based. The high study and stress load takes it's toll on your social circle outside of university. I have essentially lost many of those I use to have and it does not help I start my internship in a few weeks time so I just feel I've lost everything I thought I'd ever want.
Money, fame and status are not things that rank high with me. I guess you could say I am that kind of hippie-type drifter. Yet it just sucks that I can walk through university and see guys who you'd call geeks with girlfriends or other guys who seem to have it naturally down pack.
