In 1988 I was 7 years old, my dad just came from 7 years of prison. From what I remember he served for corruption, in what is now known as operation Ocean, back in USSR. I remember visiting my dad several times in prison, with my mom. He carved from wood two toy cars for me. My dad’s family has two uncles, and at the time his mom and his dad, none of them visited him, only my mom and I ever visited him. Soon after my dad returned from prison he started beating on my mom, from what I understand now my mom was cheating on him. They got divorced, mom won custody. My dad was there but he never stopped blaming my mom, he calls her back stabber and cheater. In 1996 me and my mom moved to United States, and we lived here since.
I was an AFC until very recently, my dad is 60+ and he is still an AFC. I got my AFC syndrome from my dad. I had to learn everything from sites like sosuave and books such as pooks. I’ve grown considerably, as far as spiritual, mental, and material aspect of me goes. Recently I decided I don’t want to have children in United States, instead I’d move to Russia and have kids here. This is due to several different reasons which I rather not discuss. Response from my dad was very disappointing. I thought we’d live together for a start, until I get my own place, you know, we’d go to places and have some good fun. When I called him he cursed me.
In Russia people are what we call “signed” to live in certain address. Once you are signed to live in certain address, no one can kick you out. I am signed to live where my dad lives. My dad owns a three bedroom apartment and a two story dacha, which I helped build him. I called him the other day telling him I’m coming over, instead of being happy, he cursed me. He said he have been married for four years and is happy with his new wife. He is still angry at my mother, who was the only one visiting him in prison for seven years far away in the arctic. Basically from what I gather he has forsaken us, and is blaming us for ruining his life.
Recently my mom send a one use camera to him to take pictures of her mom and her family. Pictures he send us showed frames off centered with fat guy in the center smiling. I didn’t understand the deal with that until my recent talk with my dad. It appears he was saying in those pictures that he is fine, laughing at us, or at least that’s what mattered to him. Basically it all coming in to paint a picture of my dad, he forsaken us, he don’t want to see his son anymore. He’s more preoccupied with small ****ty things such as me staying in his apartment forever, which I don’t want. What else do you expect from a 60 year old AFC?
Everything has come clear to me recently. I realized how much my mother
loves me, and that there is absolutely no love from my father, nor there was any love from him for me in the past. Basically I decided what I want to do with him, I will just forget him, never talk to him again, never would care about him, never let this little **** man down there get me down on his level.
There is this feeling over me. I have grown so much, my dad is still what he was in 1988. In a way me being successful is letting my dad win. Me simply existing is letting my dad win.
I was an AFC until very recently, my dad is 60+ and he is still an AFC. I got my AFC syndrome from my dad. I had to learn everything from sites like sosuave and books such as pooks. I’ve grown considerably, as far as spiritual, mental, and material aspect of me goes. Recently I decided I don’t want to have children in United States, instead I’d move to Russia and have kids here. This is due to several different reasons which I rather not discuss. Response from my dad was very disappointing. I thought we’d live together for a start, until I get my own place, you know, we’d go to places and have some good fun. When I called him he cursed me.
In Russia people are what we call “signed” to live in certain address. Once you are signed to live in certain address, no one can kick you out. I am signed to live where my dad lives. My dad owns a three bedroom apartment and a two story dacha, which I helped build him. I called him the other day telling him I’m coming over, instead of being happy, he cursed me. He said he have been married for four years and is happy with his new wife. He is still angry at my mother, who was the only one visiting him in prison for seven years far away in the arctic. Basically from what I gather he has forsaken us, and is blaming us for ruining his life.
Recently my mom send a one use camera to him to take pictures of her mom and her family. Pictures he send us showed frames off centered with fat guy in the center smiling. I didn’t understand the deal with that until my recent talk with my dad. It appears he was saying in those pictures that he is fine, laughing at us, or at least that’s what mattered to him. Basically it all coming in to paint a picture of my dad, he forsaken us, he don’t want to see his son anymore. He’s more preoccupied with small ****ty things such as me staying in his apartment forever, which I don’t want. What else do you expect from a 60 year old AFC?
Everything has come clear to me recently. I realized how much my mother
loves me, and that there is absolutely no love from my father, nor there was any love from him for me in the past. Basically I decided what I want to do with him, I will just forget him, never talk to him again, never would care about him, never let this little **** man down there get me down on his level.
There is this feeling over me. I have grown so much, my dad is still what he was in 1988. In a way me being successful is letting my dad win. Me simply existing is letting my dad win.
