My word, every and anything I post is rigorously honest here in this forum. I'm this honest at work too, so if someone recognises me from some site or shop I've worked at, so be it and a 'how r ya doing' to him.
You guys are all killing it. Great job on the pursuit of your purposes. I get confidence and bursts of energy each time I read posts.
Please don't ask me why I'm here or why I identify with red pill rationale.
What I can explain is this,
I emulate men and adore them....as a tomboy; but I'm currently wgtow(yes, copycatting the mgtows-thanks to them for their strong examples) with lingering oneitis for ------ who wouldn't get a vasectomy last year(last time I was a member here)
I feel like this forum material is keeping me sane. It explains a lot of my former naivete in dating and relationships and miscommunicated expectations and unclear boundaries.
I am interested in studying feminine bloggers/youtubers in addition to studying game.
Yin and yang. Yang and yin.
I'm definitely not like the woman sitting at the deli counter in Paul Fusill's book 'class' but I currently couldn't tell you for sure, for sure which secks orientation I am.
I can tell you for certain, that I can make women giggle and do things for me in the service industry like how I see men charm them and I feel only recognition when I see a guy practicing game.
I got into this walking track(glass reflection body pic) for free today by smiling sweetly at buddy's wife(don't have my membership yet-tight budget)
I'm currently doing 10,000 steps plus a day-I wear my 15 year old pedometer to measure these-and see my new dietitian next week, one on one.
Emotional eating/bulimia issue.
Borderline bpd(if there's such a thing); probably narcissism.
Been overweight now since 2006, working at the steel mill back home. That was the time I started quitting smoking.
Non smoker now for 15 months minus 1 month over xmas, so really 1 1/2 months smokefree again.
Face pic: I have minimal girlie skills in applying makeup, but I'm slowly learning.
I swear I can't get slimmer faster than this. 5'5; cw 217; gw 145.
Its brutal not having the cigarettes for stress relief.
Unless I go hard and start powerlifting again.