backbreaker
Master Don Juan
I've talked about this once before on this forum but I will discuss it again to drive a point home.
I had at one point, quite possibly the worst compulsive masturbation addiction than anyone else on this forum. Defiantly no one did it MORE than I did a few might have matched it. I started masturbating when i was maybe 10 or 11. It was under control for the most part, 1-2 times a day if that until I got on drugs when I was 21 years old. Drugs and masturbation for me went hand and hand. I would get huge quantities of drugs, lock myself in a room and just watch porn and masturbate for hours and hours at a time. it was awesome (not really lol)
Then when i got off drugs, I used masturbation to replace the drugs. I'd masturbate at min... 4-5 times a day. i always masturbated twice before i got out of bed. then a random
I was always tired. Always real irritable. Never could get enough sleep. NO matter how clean i ate i could not lose weight **** i was putting more on. I could not sleep for the life of me. Someone told me Backbreaker.. maybe.. you need to stop fapping lol. Like my common sense metor was telling me this might be a problem.
So I did what I always did, and went online to look to see if my problem was common or what not and all i could find were pages saying "oh masturbation is fine, don't listen to people telling you it's a problem there are no problems, your tiredness is not coming from fapping 7 times a day lol"
I honestly did this routine for about.. 5 months. I'd feel like ****. I'd go online to try to find some research or some confirmation that this was a problem and all i found were people telling me it's not a problem. So I kept fapping lol.
one day, after like a fap binge lol, like 10-15 times. I said you know, i don't give a **** what they say on this internet. This is a problem. I know it's a problem. I know it's a problem becuase I can't stop doing it lol. That alone should tell me it's a problem but you cannot sit here and tell me that there is anything else i'm doing that's got me tired, overweight, stressed out and angry all the time other than fapping 5-6-7 times a day does.
Long story short.. the first week.. I had doubts. I wanted to fap but held out. I thought about all the **** I was missing out on. The end of the first week I remember I woke up and for the first time in like 2 years, I had ENERGY. I felt normal again. I was so happy i went to the gym and damn near killed myself I was so tired i could not go tot he gym until then. that's how tired i was. i could not do anything.
it went up and down for the next month but after that first month, i never looked back. **** the internet lol. That was like 8 years ago. I'm not staying I've NEVER fapped before, but i can count on one hand the amount of times I did it and every time I did I went into fap prevention mode to not make it a chronic thing.
For whatever the reason may be the drugs flipped a switch in my head. I can either not do it or I have to do it 5-10 times a day. I don't care what the dudes on yahoo or reddit or whatever say I can't do it. I know this from real world experience
My point being, a little real world experience will go a long way. Use the internet to expand on what you learn in real life, not to learn about real life. All those fappers had ulterior motives to telling me fapping was okay they didn't want to stop lol.
This is a good place. But it will do you no good if you don't have any real world experience go combine it with. Go out and talk to chicks. Try to make friends. Get out the house, do ****.
I had at one point, quite possibly the worst compulsive masturbation addiction than anyone else on this forum. Defiantly no one did it MORE than I did a few might have matched it. I started masturbating when i was maybe 10 or 11. It was under control for the most part, 1-2 times a day if that until I got on drugs when I was 21 years old. Drugs and masturbation for me went hand and hand. I would get huge quantities of drugs, lock myself in a room and just watch porn and masturbate for hours and hours at a time. it was awesome (not really lol)
Then when i got off drugs, I used masturbation to replace the drugs. I'd masturbate at min... 4-5 times a day. i always masturbated twice before i got out of bed. then a random
fap in the day, another in the day, maybe 2-3 at night time before bed. If i was bored it was worse. I was always tired. Always real irritable. Never could get enough sleep. NO matter how clean i ate i could not lose weight **** i was putting more on. I could not sleep for the life of me. Someone told me Backbreaker.. maybe.. you need to stop fapping lol. Like my common sense metor was telling me this might be a problem.
So I did what I always did, and went online to look to see if my problem was common or what not and all i could find were pages saying "oh masturbation is fine, don't listen to people telling you it's a problem there are no problems, your tiredness is not coming from fapping 7 times a day lol"
I honestly did this routine for about.. 5 months. I'd feel like ****. I'd go online to try to find some research or some confirmation that this was a problem and all i found were people telling me it's not a problem. So I kept fapping lol.
one day, after like a fap binge lol, like 10-15 times. I said you know, i don't give a **** what they say on this internet. This is a problem. I know it's a problem. I know it's a problem becuase I can't stop doing it lol. That alone should tell me it's a problem but you cannot sit here and tell me that there is anything else i'm doing that's got me tired, overweight, stressed out and angry all the time other than fapping 5-6-7 times a day does.
Long story short.. the first week.. I had doubts. I wanted to fap but held out. I thought about all the **** I was missing out on. The end of the first week I remember I woke up and for the first time in like 2 years, I had ENERGY. I felt normal again. I was so happy i went to the gym and damn near killed myself I was so tired i could not go tot he gym until then. that's how tired i was. i could not do anything.
it went up and down for the next month but after that first month, i never looked back. **** the internet lol. That was like 8 years ago. I'm not staying I've NEVER fapped before, but i can count on one hand the amount of times I did it and every time I did I went into fap prevention mode to not make it a chronic thing.
For whatever the reason may be the drugs flipped a switch in my head. I can either not do it or I have to do it 5-10 times a day. I don't care what the dudes on yahoo or reddit or whatever say I can't do it. I know this from real world experience
My point being, a little real world experience will go a long way. Use the internet to expand on what you learn in real life, not to learn about real life. All those fappers had ulterior motives to telling me fapping was okay they didn't want to stop lol.
This is a good place. But it will do you no good if you don't have any real world experience go combine it with. Go out and talk to chicks. Try to make friends. Get out the house, do ****.
This is really bad because I feel like women then have power over me. I want to be strong enough to say: "no, I'm not interested in sex today but I'll **** you in 4 day's when my work is done"