Long story short, I couldn't take it anymore with this girl, it was one thing after another, I know in the long run this was for the better, I really liked this girl, but she just wasn't ready for a relationship, I don't blame her because i knew this since day 1, things didn't start out the right way between us, as we had sex before we even went out on a date, she was an old friend whom I known for at least 7 years prior to us hooking up. I didn't like her that way, but one time texting, one thing led to another and we decided to become F buddies. It is true what they say, you can't turn a ho into a housewife and once a cheater, always a cheater.
she told me a lot of stuff about her past which did not bother me in the beginning, because I didnt care about her, I just wanted to F her. but this went on for a year and feelings got involved, but she isn't ready to be in a relationship and even she told me that she was sorry but she coudln't make me happy right now, since she has all these issues at home, with school and with her self ( going to therapy) that she needs to focus on and a boyfriend is not really a priority. I wasn't pushing for a relationship myself because like I said I wasn't sure she was GF material.
We had many fights lately, mostly because of her going out drinking and clubbing and me not being around her, and she had some trust issues with me, she said she ddin't trust me when I was hanging out with my friends and girls were there. I always gave her priority to hang out but she always chose to hang out with her friends instead of me on Friday and saturday nights. Too many issues, so 2 weeks ago, I decided to end it with her, she was being disrespectful and I asked her to apologize but she didn't.
She told me she was sorry that I didnt understand her and she was also sorry because she didn't trust me. 3 hours later she texted me telling me that she was crying but I didn't care about her.
I didn't replied to her and she didn't contact me since then. it's been 2 weeks since that happened. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss her, because we were "together" for 1 year, we went through a lot together, mostly dealing with her, she moved out of her house, etc... I was always there for her and she recognized it, she told me several times how I was the only person she was comfortable talking about her problems, that I was the reason she got the courage to moved out of her house, that when she was around me, it made everything better. I know for a fact that she misses me too.
Now my issue is that I don't really feel like going back to that anymore, I know this hurts now but it's for the better. 1 week before this happened, I let her use my camera because her dad was gonna take some pictures of things he sells to put them on a website, so i let her borrow it and told her she can keep it as long as she wanted because I didn't use it *which is true* I don't need the camera right now, however the lens of the camera is not mine. I wanted to email her and ask her if she is not using it anymore so i could get it back, it's a $400 camera plus the lens. Like I said I don't use it right now so I can wait a little longer to contact her, but I also don't want her to get the idea that I'm gonna give it her.
BUT.... I do feel like part of the reason I want to ask her about the camera is because I kinda want to hear back from her, so I don't know how is this gonna help.
i don't want to be an ass and tell her give it back right now, it seems to me that she has already told our mutual friends about us. I texted her brother last week to ask him something and he didn't reply, i was texting another friend of ours, more of her than mine, then i saw on facebook that they hung out together one day and my friend stop replying to my texts and FB messages. Any input
she told me a lot of stuff about her past which did not bother me in the beginning, because I didnt care about her, I just wanted to F her. but this went on for a year and feelings got involved, but she isn't ready to be in a relationship and even she told me that she was sorry but she coudln't make me happy right now, since she has all these issues at home, with school and with her self ( going to therapy) that she needs to focus on and a boyfriend is not really a priority. I wasn't pushing for a relationship myself because like I said I wasn't sure she was GF material.
We had many fights lately, mostly because of her going out drinking and clubbing and me not being around her, and she had some trust issues with me, she said she ddin't trust me when I was hanging out with my friends and girls were there. I always gave her priority to hang out but she always chose to hang out with her friends instead of me on Friday and saturday nights. Too many issues, so 2 weeks ago, I decided to end it with her, she was being disrespectful and I asked her to apologize but she didn't.
She told me she was sorry that I didnt understand her and she was also sorry because she didn't trust me. 3 hours later she texted me telling me that she was crying but I didn't care about her.
I didn't replied to her and she didn't contact me since then. it's been 2 weeks since that happened. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss her, because we were "together" for 1 year, we went through a lot together, mostly dealing with her, she moved out of her house, etc... I was always there for her and she recognized it, she told me several times how I was the only person she was comfortable talking about her problems, that I was the reason she got the courage to moved out of her house, that when she was around me, it made everything better. I know for a fact that she misses me too.
Now my issue is that I don't really feel like going back to that anymore, I know this hurts now but it's for the better. 1 week before this happened, I let her use my camera because her dad was gonna take some pictures of things he sells to put them on a website, so i let her borrow it and told her she can keep it as long as she wanted because I didn't use it *which is true* I don't need the camera right now, however the lens of the camera is not mine. I wanted to email her and ask her if she is not using it anymore so i could get it back, it's a $400 camera plus the lens. Like I said I don't use it right now so I can wait a little longer to contact her, but I also don't want her to get the idea that I'm gonna give it her.
BUT.... I do feel like part of the reason I want to ask her about the camera is because I kinda want to hear back from her, so I don't know how is this gonna help.
i don't want to be an ass and tell her give it back right now, it seems to me that she has already told our mutual friends about us. I texted her brother last week to ask him something and he didn't reply, i was texting another friend of ours, more of her than mine, then i saw on facebook that they hung out together one day and my friend stop replying to my texts and FB messages. Any input