I do want to change,but don't have the plan to do it. This has been my dillemma. What I hope to achieve from this is some solutions to several of the things bothering me.
The 100% thing,the effort,that's where one of my main issues has been. I want the success,but lack the effort. And as time goes on,it becomes more and more of a harder goal to reach.
I am going to go with the mindset of wanting to change,telling them everything,and working it out. But when you say any and everything, I mean,I want to avoid acting out of desperation.
Alas though,my one main problem remains,not getting laid,nor even signs of interest. I could go on and on,but you know how it is.
I mean,it has something do with not being social enough. I still have alot of old beliefs about people that can't seemingly go away. This probably stems from long periods of isolation,and bad experiences in the past. I mean, it's not like I am going out somewhere new every day,just to see what happens. No,for a while now,it's been,work,home,sometimes I go out,usually on my own. Alone. I have found myself not approaching out of worrying looking like or coming of as weird or creepy,but that's a behavorial thing,and I just need to remind myself what not to do. Living at home has been a hinderance as well. Of course, I didn't want things to end up like that,they just sort of did.