Maxtro said:
This is just stuff that I have been noticing. Years ago there was a girl that I had a crush on at an old job. I talked to her a lot, drove her around like a retarded shoffer and even listened to her problems. One day at work a excoworker that hasn't been there a while showed up and she gave him a hug. For all I known she never talked to him and yet he got a hug I never touched her and she never gave me a hug for anything I've done. It seemed very odd to me. At me new job there is a new girl that has hugged a few new guys and put her arm around them but she seems almost cold to me. She may just not like white guys. But it is stuff that I notice.
It's already a given that this is getting to you. I do not know about the subconcious mind and how it influences things from happening in the environment, but my theory is that you have some negative feed-back loop going on in your mental process that is contributing to this. You have to think positive and start picturing yourself getting hugged or just dont let it bother you -- because it seems you are looking and expecting for this type of stuff to happen, and guess what, it's happening.
I believe that you view yourself as creepy and have a very low self-esteem because you had to resort to low avenues to get sex or relationships and this has contributed to a damaged self-concept. Because you view yourself like that you are giving off these strong vibes and people are treating you consistently to your self-concept.
I tell you one thing, if something was to bother me, and I was to focus on it, it will likely happen in some way or another. The things that gripe you the most or bother you the most, seem to just raise their ugly head. So, there may be nothing wrong with you other than what's in your own head - that's what I'm saying here.
Maxtro said:
Those things were only to get sex. Nothing else mattered and I got nothing else, expected nothing else.
Those 'things'? They are people not things. I'm just saying, if you connected with a woman before to the extent of having sex, whether you paid for it or not, then why is this hug thing bothering you so much? It seems like it's more important to you then sex is or your past sexual experience with a woman.
It goes back with my theory is that maybe you weren't really looking for sex at a deeper level, but they are looking for a real intimate connection - what I'm learning from your experience is that a prostitute or a casual hook-up from adultfriendfinder doesn't cut it compared to by a girl that has genuinely displayed affection, even if it is with a hug.
Maxtro said:
I think I'll pass on the cuddle party, that concept sounds very AFC. To me a hug is a simply nothing more than a nice way for a girl to nonverbally say, "I think you're nice and you don't creep me out." But if a girl hugs other guys and not me then I kind of feel that she is saying that I do creep her out.
The concept of going to a prostitute or going on zero-game territory like adultfriendfinder to look for sex is also very AFC, but you needed it, and you went that far, so you can pass on it if your like, but again, if you are going to pass then dont let this 'hug' thing get to you. It sounds like you are in dire need of a hug from a woman - that sounds AFC too if you look at it because hugging is associated with friendships and friendzoning things, it's not even a valid goal on a seduction board.
You've probably heard of the two ladder theory? - one ladder for friends and another for lovers. The ladder for friends, may have close cuddling and hugging, but another guy would get her pants while her friend has blue-balls, and it gripes even worst for her friend because he is so close to her but cant cross that threshold while another guy sails through it effortlessly. So, this hugging thing is classic AFC if you look at it.
Like I said, I hugged a girl last year, and she turned on me afterwards because I lost my cool with her after being shell-shocked by something she wrote and she rejected me after I wouldn't appear to give her a chance to explain herself, and while I have a nice memory of that hug, it still appeared to have ended badly.