Do what you must, if you Really Want her, do what you m f'in Want. It's your life. You live by Your compass, and the love which dwells deep within. Be guided by your own light only. If you Really want this girl, then fvck her, go after her.
I followed my heart 7 years ago, pursued a girl I'd thought I'd Really wanted, And who I'd really thought had wanted me, at work, Until she turned on me, out of peer pressure, I think. It was them or me, she chose them, all our co-workers (some of whom sought to do me in) and sure as sh!t, they did me in, I was fired and threatened with "Do you know there are federal employment laws against blah blah sexual harassment what you did (absolutely nothing but 2 voice mails left after breaking up - I'm sure she played them for our manager(s), the owner, maybe even co-workers, who knows?)?" I was called into the office for a serious sit-down about it. She'd told on me (that I was "stalking" her, total lies, but all men "good ole boy" managers believed, of course, rushing to protect her, the white knights quick to throw their arms around her and comfort her)
But in the end, because I am a very strong person, and at the time was discovering Who I Am again. I'd lost knowledge of myself until I'd met this oneitis. She provided the spark to recover my true identity. That was more valuable than anything I could have ever done in my entire life to this point, I became a successful boy/man again at that exact lovestruck moment. While I loved her, I loved me just as well. While it was hard to live without her, living without her was not hard because I still had me, who I loved/love just as much. I know who I am.
I've had some f'd up girls try to imitate me cause I'm so unusual they begin to act like me or try to take on my traits, but they could never Be me, but they are uncontrollably drawn to me.
Anyway, just last week, I found out, just through my normal course of work, where this oneitis now lives, and let me tell you guys 7 years later, she lives in a dump, I'm talkin' 1940s built 1 bedroom 1 bath 500 sq ft apartment in a 4-plex still in her early-mid 30s.
She got me fired, how I took that, how I bounced back stronger than fvckin ever, I, now, have, not easily, but with fierce determination, 10X'd her living status/quality of life. She now in the dregs, man. Her company went belly up a year or 2 after I got fired. Not saying I had anything to do with them fizzling out so fast after that, I just don't think I have that kind of power. I Did have powerful friends back then though, who knew of my plight.
