"I guess you put the DJ-way of thinking in a philosifal way: You mustn't strive for being a DJ, because then you won't accomplish it, you just have to be, and you don't have to be. What lies in the middle of being and non-being is the state you want to accomplish."
*Titus shakes Ej Brujo's hand*
Could i please have a "FYCK YEAH," here? You got it right.
But who knows what might come out of it in 10 years. I can hardly wait to see!
xanderbaz, you seem like you got some points figured out for yourself. That's good.
Mine are very different then yours, but i'm still curious what you might think about them:
I know what you mean, by being dragged down. It happened to me too, a while ago. I suddenly started realizing i had almost nothing in common with some people i spent lots of time with, and that what they were doing actually wasn't what i wanted to do. But those that i consider "friends," and not just "buddies," are still here, no matter if they have the "AFC" tendencies. They don't influence me much anymore, but i still like their company very much. Or to say it another way, i'm friends with them just because of friendship, not because of anykind of improvement or learining.
a) it urges me to strive to be better than they are;
*sigh* Where do i know that attitude from? Yep, restless nights, anger, nonstop fighting who is right and who is now, even in your own head, frustration... etc.
Xand, please, just keep listening to yourself... if you like that kind of attitude, good, but if you ever get the feeling you are getting tired of competing, don't think twice about throwing it all away... cause' once you hit the pavement and it starts hurting, it'll only start hurting more and more, all they way until you drop it all.
b) to outsiders, you will always appear as good as the best member of the group and;
As i already said, i don't care much how i appear to people. I'm far from being totaly unaffected by it, but i try anyway. And, quite a stroke of luck, people threat me very good with that kind of attitude. Some aren't so fortunate.
c)Believe it or not, you are judged by your posse.
xanderbaz, BELIEVE ME, i FYKIN know what you are talking about... much better them quite a lot of people. And that is one more reason i try not to think what people think about me.
Oakriderz2, here are you
"Just because you're trying to turn DJing in to more than it really is does that mean that you have to not listen to anyone else?? You're making it MUCH more complicated than it really is."
I found this one quite interesting.
Doest that mean that DJing has limits?? And i try to listen to everyone around me. I stated that a few times already.
"What are you talking about??? What illusion are you talking about?? This isnt buddhism or a religon nor is it complicated as one. So why are you trying to compare two things that differ so greatly for?? Dont tell me i dont understand what you mean because i do, you just have a BAD comparison."
Goddang, i you say you understand what i wrote, well, then I DON'T on what you wrote back.
You seem to have failed to understand what i ment with "illusions," so i'll try to summon it all up in a few sentances for you:
You are TOTALY blind, deaf and numb. Yes, you read it correctly. You are. You don't see anything or hear anything. You have been like that since you left childhood and since you left behind all the primary awareness of the world behind you, the one that mother nature gave to you. It was replaced with the secondary awareness that was given to you by the society, so you could live and fit inside it. Be that, do that, have this, have that... you have been sleeping all of your life, you are even now. All that you see around you, people, object, all that you hear around you, animals, whistling of wind, gurgling of water, listening to people is fake. You don't see it as it is in truth. You see and hear it throu your deformed perceptions that have been forced into you by your parents, society, friends, school and mostly everyting else that is society inflicted. You are asleep. But it is possible to wake up, get rid of your illusions and get back your primary awareness, but it is far from being easy. Becuase the issue here, as it is in secondary awareness, is not "get something," but "get rid of something, shed it."
But do not despair. I am also like that, like everyone else around you. But being aware that you ARE asleep is the first step towards waking up.
Good luck, Oakriderz2 i hope you'll make it someday
