4th day of no masturbation. Wanna go crazy.

[ScottMustaine]

My balls hurt. Weird feeling down there. I'm nervous as hell. Thoughts of fkin everywhere. Can't focus, nor can I keep normal conversations as I don't even listen.


:S 26 more days.

 

[Asterisk]

So you're on the no-fap challenge huh?
Isn't supposed to be 90 days, not 30?
In either case I'm down with that.
I think I'll try to stretch it out as long as possible though.
Last time I tried it, didn't make any posts about it, but I
was able to go a month and a half without it. That was between
the month of November and the middle of December.
Ever since I relapsed though, I haven't been able to stay away
from porn My devious mind keeps finding ways around
my web protection. Every time I relapse. I step it up a notch
and make the web protection even more strict.
I've been using K9 Web Protection if you wanna google it.
Funny though, last time I didn't use any safeguards.....

 

[Who Dares Win]

Lucky you, I wish I could reach that state only after 4 days...Im about 2 weeks since last time I released (one night stand) and dont feel even remotely similar to such state, maybe its the age difference.

By the way I would suggest you to avoid any porn vision if you wanna last, if your libido pass a certain level and you have the strenght to keep it a wet dream is gonna happen anyway.

 

[ScottMustaine]

Well I make my own goals and go for them.

I deactivated FB account since I was wasting too much time on it. Since 15th January. Will at least go with it 'till 15th February.

Then I decided not to masturbate either.


On Feb. 1st I will go vegetarian for 1 month as well.



Point is I lose too much time. I noticed I would go unconciously via mobile phone, just to get to log in page, and remember that I am doing it like a robot.

I watched a bit of porn by accident of 'history' in browser, didn't masturbate.

It usually starts at nights to hit me. And I already got problems with sleep. I fall asleep at 4am. Somehow managed to hit 2am. But it's a problem. I feel weak etc. That's why I'm changing many things.


I'm about to make a schedule when will I eat, go to sleep, get up, study, practice. Etc. Still hard for me to be organized, since I got used to do everything when it's 2 minutes to midnight. I would even study for my final exams 30 minutes before them.


Some day I'll hit a wall and I want to change that so I could successfully finish my school and thrive for music career with backup option as a lawyer.


P.S. The worst thing is I get feelings of guilt. And I start missing my recent two ex-girlfriends who stabbed me in the back. I can't believe what the fk can a testosterone do to you.

When I decided to break up with my gf, I made sure to wank the banana so I wouldn't be horny.

Now this **** is making me needy and horny all the time. Not to mention I'm all the time out of focus. Still not aggressive.


To make things even funnier, the bands I never liked listening , I started doing it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EA5lnL3oOJ0 like this one. Helps a lot to snap out of 'I need you' thing. Plus I keep reminding myself what hell I've been through and I should focus on new ones instead of old.

 

[ScottMustaine]

7pm

Pain kicked in. Again I got that feeling which is almost telling me to touch myself down there. Now I notice how much our media is filled with sex things. It's almost like it's screaming. Fvck you Kim Kardashian.


Blocked all porn sites and facebook. Just in case I don't go in there.



This has became a battle against addiction and strengthening of faith.

Song that helps me now is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I24lT9Rpb8U



"A mind lost within its own self
Existing to feed its hunger
Your body hollowed empty shell
Awaiting feed of the ages

Darkness will cover the mind
Casting a shade on reasoning
Immolation of the human self
Conflagration of the ego

Burn in your own hell
Life grand holding cell

Two become as one
One become a slave

Burn the eye to blind
Keeping truth from mind
Breathe in the life
Breathe in the lie

No longer are you human
Just a leech of the addiction
... "


The part burn in your own hell pretty much sums it up. I'm a virgin, trying to get sex/orgasm and now I'm fighting against it and burning in itself. Funny.


P.S. I was touching myself a bit, didn't orgasm.

It doesn't count as no fap, or it does ? If so. Day 1.

 

[Crazystarf]

As a person of similar age as you are I would like to contribute to this.

There are times where I would wake up early in the morning, and feel massive stiffness in my ****/testicles (morning wood), and it seems to intensify further and further as times passes by. This makes it impossible for me to abstain for more than 3 days :<

One thing I've noticed in particular is that when I sleep on beds that lack a spring mattress (beds in dorm rooms), there doesn't seem to any morning wood for some reason (maybe lack of blood flow).

At my 3rd day here btw. In dorm currently so hopefully no morning wood by the next day

 

[VladPatton]

Why. The. Fųck. Would you torture yourself like that? Your dıck's gonna forget how to work. If you can't get laid at will, this is pointless really. It's like starving a bulimic. Eventually you'll wake up with Dannon in your undies because you'll want to pop so bad you'll dream of it.

But hey if this is what you wanna do, good luck to ya man.

 

[Korrupt]

There are no pros to not masturbating, only not looking at porn. Jack off all you want. Just don't do it to porn.

Masturbation good. Porn bad.

 

[Brosy]

There are no pros to not masturbating, only not looking at porn. Jack off all you want. Just don't do it to porn.

Masturbation good. Porn bad.

Absolutely this, try pointing this out over on the 'your brain on porn' site/forum. They're like a cult of zombies.

Abstaining from porn is a good idea, their logic stands up well and it can distort your expectations. HOWEVER complete celibacy? that's when you start to see the religious undertones of the place.

Knocking one out is completely healthy and normal as long as you aren't doing it 10 times a day. Their only argument against is "remember before puberty you were happy and clear minded etc"? Wtf, the only way you'll return to that state is cutting your balls off, don't buy it.

 

[ScottMustaine]

Absolutely this, try pointing this out over on the 'your brain on porn' site/forum. They're like a cult of zombies.

Abstaining from porn is a good idea, their logic stands up well and it can distort your expectations. HOWEVER complete celibacy? that's when you start to see the religious undertones of the place.

Knocking one out is completely healthy and normal as long as you aren't doing it 10 times a day. Their only argument against is "remember before puberty you were happy and clear minded etc"? Wtf, the only way you'll return to that state is cutting your balls off, don't buy it.

If I would stop at 1 or 2... Let me put it this way. I once started measuring my 'max'. I had like...14 years. My maximum was 43. My d1ck hurt like hell and I had blackened vision ( no sh1t sherlock ).

So yeah, I kinda hit it to 10. I don't count. But it's over 3.


Day 5. Didn't have need to masturbate lol.

 

[Fatal Jay]

My balls hurt. Weird feeling down there. I'm nervous as hell. Thoughts of fkin everywhere. Can't focus, nor can I keep normal conversations as I don't even listen.


:S 26 more days.

I went 90 days without masturbation,the first week is the hardest

the end of the 90 says is hard too, but you gain so much without fapping

 

[Night-hawk]

Masturbation minimizes desire which minimizes desperation which increases enlightenment that ***** is stupider than you force yourself to believe. I've jerked off several times in a day and still picked up girls. Sex and attraction doesn't amount to your load size it amounts to your arousal. You are attracted to a girl she will spark a feeling and your **** she will respond. Also, who says a guy has to be in the mood all the time.