fear

First, I just read the Mystery Method. Now I want to start applying the information. Mystery suggests to memorize routines. Where do I find these routines? Secondly, fear has paralyzed me. I don't know where to begin to actually practice game. Instead of just reading about it. I don't have any...

Thank you in advance for any advice you may offer. I'm in a dark place and am really in need of some straightening out. We met while we were both performers in China. We had immediate mutual high interest, and we found ourselves in a relationship fairly quickly, despite other opportunities I...