So I went to my first backyard fight league recently. I wont mention the name but it is a well known one. It was awesome, wholesome and horrifying at the same time.
It was the middle of no where with a bunch of "degenerates" like me. Some people looked like drug heads. Everyone was so nice though. It was super chill and all love even after the fight.
I was afraid though. I could not pull the trigger and fight. I am so disspointed in myself.
I can spar in the gym but a fight league is different. I had no idea who I was going up against. Some of the boxers were amazing but most were just regular skill levels. Many of the guys were just average joes. Some dont even train at all.
Why was I afraid! I have done BJJ tournaments before but striking and MMA is even more scary. The ride home was so dissapointig. I let fear win again.
In 2 two months I will go back. This time I will fight even if I get KOed right away.
I need yall to keep me accountable. Thanks
Sorry for the rant. I jusr hate when I let fear win.
It was the middle of no where with a bunch of "degenerates" like me. Some people looked like drug heads. Everyone was so nice though. It was super chill and all love even after the fight.
I was afraid though. I could not pull the trigger and fight. I am so disspointed in myself.
I can spar in the gym but a fight league is different. I had no idea who I was going up against. Some of the boxers were amazing but most were just regular skill levels. Many of the guys were just average joes. Some dont even train at all.
Why was I afraid! I have done BJJ tournaments before but striking and MMA is even more scary. The ride home was so dissapointig. I let fear win again.
In 2 two months I will go back. This time I will fight even if I get KOed right away.
I need yall to keep me accountable. Thanks
Sorry for the rant. I jusr hate when I let fear win.