I'm not saying this to attack you, so I hope you don't take it that way. I know you are here to try to understand
yourself better so I will add this comment:
Weren't you married to a very attractive woman and you had ZERO interest in having intercourse with her?
Are you trying to justify your own shortcomings by starting "modern women are horrible"?
If they were wonderful wouldn't you still have no interest in copulating with them based on your past marriage with an attractive
woman who you had no desire for?
Okay, I probably owe you guys a fuller explanation for why I say the things I do and have the attitude I have
on here, the (not so) short version is that over our 18 years together my wife changed a lot. I was a lot more
keen on her physically at the start as her
demeanour was entirely different. It was a good enough relationship
after 10 years together for me to ask her to marry me and for her to say yes. It all started going to hell
in a handcart as soon as we had tied the knot. Some of that wasn't her fault directly as 7 weeks after we
wed her mother died of cancer which had a profound effect on her and continues to do so to this day.
There's lots more to this story, 3 months after we wed she cheated on me with a barman on a 'girls night out'
which I gave her a pass for as she had lost her mum barely a month before, besides we had only just married
and I wasn't going to scupper that so soon after tying the knot. Things did improve for a short while but she
is an only child raised by a single mother and soon reverted to her naturally selfish manner. In the final four
years of our relationship she discovered social media. Namely Facebook, thanks in main to her pole dancing
hobby (which begun about 5 years before our split) with use of it for "being to stay in touch with the girls at
pole because they're all on it", she had not been involved with it before then. Before long her phone was
permanently welded to her hand. I moved into the spare bedroom where I slept alone for the last 4 years
living there since by then I felt like I was way down her queue of priorities. I didn't really notice how bad it had
gotten because we got a dog about three years before the split as being a property developer/landlord I didn't
have to go to work as such and the weeks and months of sitting there alone were getting to me. Raising a puppy
into a well balanced and obedient dog took up a lot of my time especially since the pole dancing thing was keeping
her out in the evenings after her work 3-6 nights a week. I barely saw her. We begun a huge renovation of our
home in June 19 which I was overseeing and physically involved in day to day and was stressed out with the
pressure of that and by October 19 was about fit to blow a gasket. The whole side of the house had to come off
and my untested design to hold the house up with the new structure was about to be put to the test. She picked
an argument which I over reacted to because I had been so distracted by whether or not our house might fall down.
I walked out never to return and that was the last time I called that place home. My wife is 10 years my junior and I
got with her when I was 28 and she was 18 after some 7 years of celibacy which I broke about 5 months before I met
her with some body piercer chick I met in the same rock club I met my wife in.
I don't feel I have any shortcomings, there are lots of girls where I work and many of them give me IOIs and go out
of their way to interact with me. I'm polite of course and smile and chat along but act like I don't know they are hitting
on me. I'm 6ft, a mortgage free homeowner, slim, fit and sort of jacked, I could look epic with a little gym time but my
current job is very taxing and I don't have the energy after work. I can hold a conversation with anyone, play musical
instruments, ride motorcycles, six figures in the bank, full head of hair, decent sized (pierced) trouser snake, tattoos
all over the place, tanned, full head of hair, numerate, literate and generally intelligent, well travelled and hugely practical
and can basically build a house from the ground up. I know I'm a catch. I just don't want to be in anyone's net anymore.
