The price of sex

[Blacksheep]

Well, this is not going to be one of the most motivational or positive posts. I'm actually very embarrassed and feeling terrible about the situation I'm going through. Perhaps it will serve as an apprenticeship if someone is making the same mistakes that I did.

About 5 or 6 weeks ago I met a very sexy girl, I met her in a hotel ... She said she had sex with a few people and had always opted for long-term relationships.

We had sex, she was menstruating and I didn't protect myself. What I hate so much about myself is that I always wanted to be able to put on a condom and not have an erection problem. Because most of the time I can't have sex using condoms.

This was the first woman I had intercourse with after I stopped dating another woman I was with for a few months.

And luckily for me, I got an infection in the urethra again. I've been through this before and I knew what was coming. But it looks like the blow was bigger this time.

I took the medication, I thought I had treated it. But the infection came back. I am experiencing pain in the kidney regions and cannot express my fear of getting HIV or some other disease.

I talked to this person, and as she was the first one I got involved after this other one ... She told me these days that she had an infection and also found out she had hepatitis A (from what I saw it is not sexually transmitted but I don't really know). She said she had an HIV test and was negative. And that she* had sex with a guy a few weeks ago before we met.

My body does not respond well to antibiotics, and now I will have to take stronger ones apparently.

I've been trying so hard lately. I took courage to get out of the toxic situation with my family, I started to rebuild my life from scratch. I started losing weight, having more energy, feeling more attractive.

Life was really going well, until I got back to Tinder and OLD women and those who just want casual sex (I'm not saying I should get married or LTR). My energy is at 0%, feeling dirty, guilty for having ruined everything I fought hard to achieve. Depression knocks on the door, and with that I start to eat badly, to gain weight. You see everything going down the drain.

I hope that at least I didn't get a worse STD like HIV, because then I won't have the strength to deal with it anymore.

Just be careful, with the holes that you decide to enter. Most of the women I slept with in this life, a large minority, asked to put on a condom. The rest, they preferred to have sex without any protection. And with this new dynamic from Tinder and other similar apps, it's getting more and more dangerous. But of course, if you don't protect yourself.

If I solve it again, this time I'm gonna put myself into a monk mode. Until everything in my life (career, finances, health) is ok... Then, maybe... If I met some interesting woman that could have something genuine and no lies... Then maybe I could get involved with.

 

[Dust 2 Dust]

I agree you should wear a condom. To put your mind at ease a bit; the risk of HIV infection between male female vaginal sex is very low.

 

[Alvafe]

then get tested and go to a doctor, stop the excuses and now hope for nothing permanent, also take note she can be lieing, it won't be the first one to do so, don't trust her get tested, and learn from this and never trust random people again, or better yet trust no one till they proved they are worth of trust

 

[christie]

Sorry to hear you got sick.

I hope you're feeling better soon and you will after you go get more tests and get some rest.

You have a good idea to be careful next time.

 

[Blacksheep]

I agree you should wear a condom. To put your mind at ease a bit; the risk of HIV infection between male female vaginal sex is very low.

Thanks man!

For now on I'm gonna be more careful with that... And have some backup plans if I have problems with erection during sex. My doctor said that I can use those pills for that. It's better than nothing.

 

[Blacksheep]

then get tested and go to a doctor, stop the excuses and now hope for nothing permanent, also take note she can be lieing, it won't be the first one to do so, don't trust her get tested, and learn from this and never trust random people again, or better yet trust no one till they proved they are worth of trust

That's true man.

Gonna do a lot of exams tomorrow and check if everything is fine.

Hope she is not lying about her exams.

 

[Blacksheep]

Sorry to hear you got sick.

I hope you're feeling better soon and you will after you go get more tests and get some rest.

You have a good idea to be careful next time.

Thanks for your feedback!

Definitely have to be more careful next time. Dealing with that affects me on a negative way.

Have to focus on my goals and avoid behaving like that next times.

 

[christie]

Thanks for your feedback!

Definitely have to be more careful next time. Dealing with that affects me on a negative way.

Have to focus on my goals and avoid behaving like that next times.

You'll recover soon and the stress will be over.

Keep the focus on yourself.

 

[CAPSLOCK BANDIT]

Chances are very low of you catching something twice in a row, might want to get that checked out and get a second opinion

 

[Dust 2 Dust]

Thanks man!

For now on I'm gonna be more careful with that... And have some backup plans if I have problems with erection during sex. My doctor said that I can use those pills for that. It's better than nothing.

I used Viagra for a while. Porn addiction killed my labido resulting in porn enduced erectile dysfunction (PEED).

 

[Dust 2 Dust]

I can fukk all night on Viagra. Sh1t is amazing, but dont let it become a crutch.

 

[r4zorsharp]

You met a friggin hooker or a hoe and didnt realize it.. she tried to play you by saying shes always been interested in long term relationships, a fter telling you she slept with a few guys.. (probably that day alone)

But the STUPIDEST Part is you fu.cked her raw...

If you're meeting a girl at a hotel, that ***** is A HOE, cant you TELL? I mean for **** sake, she probably was already staying at the hotel to do her in-calls.. before she flies to a different state as these hoes move around because they're burning people left and right and the nature of their job is illegal

 

[Blacksheep]

You'll recover soon and the stress will be over.

Keep the focus on yourself.

Thanks! =)

 

[Blacksheep]

Chances are very low of you catching something twice in a row, might want to get that checked out and get a second opinion

Yeah man, I just made some exams today... Gonna check everything. Hope there is nothing more left.

Maybe its just some anxiety idk... Having those exams there won't be doubts.

 

[Blacksheep]

I can fukk all night on Viagra. Sh1t is amazing, but dont let it become a crutch.

Which one do you use? I tried Cialis some years ago... that kept me with good erections for 5 days in a row.

I'm really affraid of having a heart attack with that. Is it really safe?

 

[Blacksheep]

You met a friggin hooker or a hoe and didnt realize it.. she tried to play you by saying shes always been interested in long term relationships, a fter telling you she slept with a few guys.. (probably that day alone)

But the STUPIDEST Part is you fu.cked her raw...

If you're meeting a girl at a hotel, that ***** is A HOE, cant you TELL? I mean for **** sake, she probably was already staying at the hotel to do her in-calls.. before she flies to a different state as these hoes move around because they're burning people left and right and the nature of their job is illegal

Yeah man, I made a very bad decision with that. I'm gonna give a break into having casual sex... but if it happened in the future I'm gonna have some pills to help me with my psychologic erectile dysfuntion. Most of times I put condom I lost my erection. And that is the biggest cause for me to have had unprotected sex.

We had some video calls and I saw her in her house... but we never know. Also she said to me when we finished having sex: "I like so much to have sex."

When she said that I felt a really weird energy... Like she was telling me she was addicted to it. I'm almost sure she didn't fcked just that one guy unprotected before me as she said. Maybe there was more.

 

[christie]

Thanks! =)

You're welcome my dear Blacksheep.

Extra rest when you can get it is important for recovery from multiple things, people and events.

There will be a point in your future where you will feel completely rejuvenated, if you surrender to resting now to heal....from everything.


Be kind to yourself. Its what I do for myself too. It works if you just release and give in to getting more rest.

There's a reason doctors say:

"get plenty of rest and drink lots of water"

These two actions help your body and mind heal itself.

 

[Lookatu]

in the future I'm gonna have some pills to help me with my psychologic erectile dysfuntion. Most of times I put condom I lost my erection. And that is the biggest cause for me to have had unprotected sex.

Bro I've been there. Here's some things I've noticed.

Sometimes just having the right condom will do it. I would try different condoms as the "thin" ones usually work better for me with the better feeling. (the Skynz brand worked good for me)

Sometimes, you just can't get comfortable with the girl to have good, relaxed sex with her on the first meet or even the first time. (anxiety happens and can kill erections)

Sometimes, its just the sexual compatibility you have with that particular girl.( I was soft with some and rock hard with others with nothing else changing)

As for taking viagra or cialis to help you, use it sparingly and don't be reliant on it. If you use it too much, it will no longer be effective since your body can get used to it. Cialis will last the whole day where as Viagra, you need to take an hour before having sex and it only lasts 3-4hours.

Lastly, you are still young but just know that if you don't wake up with morning boners, then it's definitely a biological issue and not a psychological one so that needs to be addressed. Otherwise, you are ok.

 

[Dust 2 Dust]

Which one do you use? I tried Cialis some years ago... that kept me with good erections for 5 days in a row.

I'm really affraid of having a heart attack with that. Is it really safe?

I used Viagra. You take 1 tablet 30 minutes before sex and youre good to go. It wears off after a few hours.

 

[Lookatu]

I used Viagra. You take 1 tablet 30 minutes before sex and youre good to go. It wears off after a few hours.

Just to clarify, unless you have very low testosterone, "1 tablet" can mean several things. I recommend 25mg or less. They come in 25, 50, 100mg doses. If you take a high dose, it can leave you with a headache or feeling of being flush.