Oh my lord why are you involving your mother in your s3x life? Bruh, 1. God forgives 2. It feels good to be bad sometimes.Because she was divorced and my mother and I spoke with her ex-husband and pastor of her former church and it her ex-husband, who is also a pastor himself as well, is praying that his wife repents and comes back to him. We can reserve Bible discussions on this for PM. It didn't feel like it was God's will to continue with her because there were too many fault-lines within the relationship itself leading to feelings of insecurity and loneliness (ie loneliness within a relationship is 10 times worst than loneliness being single) and unsettling information about her past.
You are concerned about that more than we are talking about something in 2012?
It was one girl I was with that I dreaded the thought that one day this might all end because it was so perfect. I didn't even feel that way with my ex-wife because it didn't hit as high notes as the 2012 relationship, yet sex was involved with ex-wife. I'm merely pointing out that sex obviously isn't everything in terms of what makes a great memory that lasts after a break-up, and therefore not that big of a deal, or we would be talking about my ex-wife (2014) rather than my ex-gf (2012).
I grew up being homeschooled in a very religious family. My mom jouranled and did Bible study every morning for the 17 years I lived with my parents. I understand completely where you're coming from. I wasn't even allowed to listen to secular music till I was about 15. When I got my first car and told my parents I'm not going to youth group anymore, this girl I used ty air behind during service and I touched her butt where her @ss meat was poking out looked me up in the church directory, asked me why I wasn't at youth group, and then asked if the next week I wanted to go fool around in the nursery during youth group, I never even tried talking to her because I was shy, I had touched that glorious booty throughout the service.
Man you can't be afraid to touch these girls they love it. You're not an incel you're just doing it wrong, your involving your mother in your dating life, that's not right or fair to you. My mom also tried to c0ck block me. I had a girl over once the I met on Myspace and I thought my parents were going to my grandparents, but then they came home and my mom was banging on my door and I had my d1ck inside this girl. I threw her bra at her and told her to get dressed quick we're leaving, and don't adknowledge my mom just keeping going to the car. But after that I just took her back into this cornfield, the girl even brought me sandwiches because she worked at cousin subs.
Its fine if you want to practice Christianity and stuff but these girls are not worthy of the respect Christianity requires. You have to find a middle ground and look as long as you don't commit suicide God will forgive and you'll still get into heaven. Stop being so hard on yourself.