Now It all makes sense with you insulting me.. You're frustrated is what it is. I can just belittle you but I don't want to do that. I rather, feel for you, although I can't relate. The weight has nothing to do with it. That's absurdly stupid to suggest that "this is a bad weight for me"..
You really need to understand what it is that's affecting your confidence. Have you been ruminating on past failures, it seems like youhad a "string of first date rejections".. which might be affecting you. Are you bad at conversation,so you end up giving awkward vibes, which scare the girl off? Do you lack substance in your life, lack of hobbies, passions, interests, which is coming across as "uninteresting, boring"?
I mean seriously, you're the ideal guy who I used to coach and so its ironic seeing this post. A lot of the dudes I used to coach were int he same boat.. Didn't make it past the first date, and didn't even capitalize on the first date as far as sex. For alot of the guys the problem was -NERVOUS ENERGY-. A lot of them had no idea what to say , let alone what to do.. They were constantly focusing on what the girl thinks about them instead of being in the moment, and having fun. When I go out, no matter if its with ag irl, with my boys, by myself, the goal is to have a good time. For women, seduction starts in communication. Through your words, confidence, body language, you display your value.