I am sorry for your situation. I think your post is a great service to all here.
Please know I don't wish to be insensitive in asking. If you are willing to share...
Is the woman a GF, FWB, plate, ONS? Had you slept together often? Do you know her well or not much at all? Did you always have unprotected sex together? Sometimes? Pull-out & pray?
It sounds like there is a bit of wavering on whether or not an abortion will happen. Do you feel more challenged by it than you imagined you might? What is the experience like for you, as a man?
Somewhere between a FWB and a plate since I know her for like a month, but shes very intelligent, reads alot, and is loyal so I think I can call her a friend (I consider very few girls true friends cou male-female friendship is a foggy area for me. We work great as a team tho.
Well shes actually a coworker (kinda, she sleeps at the hotel I work at) aswell. She obviously liked me when I first saw her and shes this gorgeous petite girl, juicy, but not fat in any way, amazing face, thick lips, affectionate, 19 y old, the whole package, so on our second encounter I made a move and asked her to go to her room so we can have some fun. So she said shes having her period but a few days later I slept with her and then a few days later again. Problem is, in the past year I been heavily drinking so I do alot of stupid ****.
The first night I think I used 2 condoms but the first time I did it unprotected. Shes obviously either abit naive or crazy, because when I asked about protection she said "why, I thought you guys like it better without a condom", Id bet on the former tho, because crazies are good in bed, while she was very hmm meh, and believe me, I know alot about crazy, my usual "type" is BPD girls couse Imma mama's boy
so she was like a breath of fresh air. She said that her first time hurt alot so shes scared of sex, her words were "at least it didnt hurt". It got better after that, of course when I took the time to arouse her properly. Shes an artist so its normal that shes abit wierd and Im a musician so I know how it goes. I think through the drunken haze I remember noticing too little *** on her belly when I pulled out so maybe I fuked up there.
On the second night, I had only 1 condom, so I used it the first time, then I wanted to do it again, she said its a "special day" but agreed. Ofc she meant shes ovulating, bot being the drunken ****tard I am I ignored it.
So yeah after a few days she called to tell me there is a problem - she was both late with her period and got some sort of infection, probably fungal as far as the symptoms go. I believe I am not the reason, since theres nothing visibly wrong with my member (apart from being abnormally big
probably going to the beach, towels whateva. So I sent her to the doctor - I was working that day. The doctor said little about the infection and perscribed her some pills to make her period start and said the medication that will treat the infection would damage the fetus if shes pregnant. The pills should work in 10 days tops. Funny thing is she did a pregnancy test earlier and it came back negative. 5 days into medication, still no change, and shes like 12 days late.
So the whole thing is a big mess. At least Im still getting *******s tho. When I asked her to give me one the words "O, I havent done that in a year" slipped which adds to the good girl image + she doesnt smoke or drink. And shes terrible at handjobs.
Now lets look at the ways she could be decieving me:
- she was already pregnant when she came to town
- she slept with someone else, who also might have given her the infection
- she is lying about the pregnancy so I can come inside her and impregnate her thinking she already is pregnant (but then why the infection thing?)
Moreover, she is going to study abroad so why pull such stunts.
I also openly talked about those things with her and observed her reaction. My BS detector was in the green. She lied to me only once about... I dont even remember what, hid a little piece of truth, I sensed it right away and called bull****, she aint a good liar.
I am sure she, in fact is pregnant, although there is still hope. And I just somehow know Im the man. Even if I aint, abortions are pretty cheap , so why bother doing DNA tests and whatnot and wasting time and money. Ill just use condoms from now on, lesson learned. For the moment Im as supportive as I can be so she doesnt freak out and decide to keep it and whatnot. Our relationship, if you can call it this way, is very light, and although I like holding her in my arms, shes not the girl for me, I know that, she desires intellectual stimulation and friendship, while I need passion.
I should stick to crazy milfs that are good in bed, srsly, little girls are not worth the hassle...