Of Swords and Hopes

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To celebrate my 600th post, I decided to make a change and stop questioning everyhthing and everyone and make something more "old school", more like my old style.

By no means I'm lying. I stand for everything I write here, as contradictory with my previous posts it may seem.

I'm an optimist. All time.
To many people, I come off as naive.
But my naivety is the opposite of the common naivety.
I'm naive, because I know how things are, I know how rotten this world can be, yet I refuse to give in.

There's hope for the future. For everyone. All we have to do is to believe. And dream, keep on dreaming with our hearts and our hands.

Everyone has goals. Everyone has problems.
We're always with our goals in mind, many times as means to forget the problems.

But, why not embracing them? Why not taking all the dirt from under the rug, throwing away what you don't need, and looking at what's usable in a different way?

After we become DJs, we often look at our past as a Dark Age of AFCism...
Now that we're so great we're ashamed of our silly mistakes...

But, we exaggerate. Think, you were happy, you didn't kill yourself back then out of depression. You may have done things that now are unacceptable to you, but nowadays, you've outgrown that, and you've grown because that, so you can look back proudly and see that things that happened were not good or bad, but necessary.

Sometimes, life tries you out, willing to see how tough you really are, DJ boy. And it's not easy.
I believe that many of you, ever since this spiritual revolution which is the journey to become a DJ, have experienced things never felt before, and have intensified all the previous feelings.

Including sadness.

A DJ is hardly ever sad, or lonely, cause he's got a lot going on in his life.
But sometimes, cosmic conspirations work hard to make him sick, have a hard time with the family, friends, girls and go into bad luck periods.

And even when the worst is through, sometimes we're put into holding periods, endlessly shares of time that we seem to get stuck into, with no sight of release no matter how we try...

Sometimes it's like we've lost our touch, or what used to work is not working anymore. Your jokes aren't funny, your innuendos aren't natural, your lines aren't convincing...

And no matter how you pump yourself, read all the motivational post and enjoy all the endorphines you can produce from your hard work, it still doesn't get any better... for a long time...

In these times, and believe me, I've been through them a lot, you'll find out who you really are.
Probably, you're more than you expected to be...

Like making a sword, is not just about the fire, about the heat and the energy of being surrounded of people and girls, about succeeding and getting closer to your goals...

In order to make us unbreakable, we have to be taken from the hottest moment, and be thrown into cold water.
And left there for a while.

At first, a lot of steam will form, naturally. Compare the steam to the feelings of being lost, confused, and unable to do anything to make things become like they were before...

They're overwhelming, because they're not gradual, they're abrupt shocks. From hundreds to zero, in seconds...

But the quality of ourselves, will be made due to these shocks.
The sword made from the finest material will resist the shocks, and start to take shape and endurance, and soon the process will be over.

Just like you. If you've really tamed your inner demons, took a hold on your fears, you're going to live through the crisis, and they'll start to affect you less and less.

Soon, when you least expect, you won't have to worry about them anymore... and you'll be given a golden shine, which shows the world that you're a good, ready man.

Now you can take on the world, without fear of breaking down and giving up. You're now unbreakable.

If you're lost, or ever feeling lost, remember that life is putting your raw nature to proof. And if you fail is because you still have a lot to improve.

Take your time to do that. As long as it is necessary.
Have fun, of course, a lot.
But also do this. Build yourself.
Most of the people delay this for all their lives, and when the crucial battle comes, they all break.
And it's already to late... they're too old, too tired or too lazy to mend completely. They go on, but never as integer as they could have been.

So, if you're still awake at 3 am, staring out your window and looking for an answer, what to do, what to say, who to trust, hold tight.
A new dawn always comes. The minutes may seem like hours, the hours can seem like days... the days like weeks and so on...

But eventually, it will arrive. And you'll be able to enjoy it better.

If you don't know where to start, just smile, and try to find random displays of beauty that this world gives to us everyday.
We're part of a big thing, called the world, and, as hard as the times maybe for EVERYONE in this joint, we're always hanging on, always making it through the cold nights, and always believe that hope never ends.

The children still gloom and play joyfully, the elders still examine this "new world" with the diginty and wisdom of kings and queens.
People, slowly, but unstoppably, are gradually breaking out of their shells and their fear of being rejected and starting to be warmer to others !

Very often, I see people smiling, laughing, and they've just met in a bus. The young guys stading up so that the old ladies can sit,
people helping others carry their bags on the street.

It's a positive anarchy, which is subversively taking over our society, and if we let our pride and selfishness aside we can finally realize that this is ther only way to become happier and help the world become better.

Work for the universe, and it'll reward you with what's best for you!

For too long, I've been bitter with life. I thought I was better, but I just saw that I'm different. Everyone's unique, and by being gentle and polite we're getting in touch with unique, special individuals, and this enriches our lives.

Don't lose hope... and most importantly, help spreading hope... when you need it the most, you can be sure you'll get it...

Life isn't good or bad, it's just a reflection of our inner selves.
Change yourself and watch the world follow you.

And remember, the dawn always comes...


Thanks for your attention gentlemen,
I wish you all a lot of happiness and achievement

BBB
 
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Thank you for making this, man.

I got over a painful breakup with a girl I cared deeply about. I needed to read this.

Thank you for everything.

:)
 

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BBB I got halfway thru this post, and I decided to reply. I usually hate your writing. And you (we're being honest here, arent we?). But theres nothing I love, like being proved wrong.

---To celebrate my 600th post, I decided to make a change and stop questioning everyhthing and everyone and make something more "old school".---

Old school? Lol, u werent even reading when this forum was "new"... but I understand where your coming from.

---By no means I'm lying, I stand for everything I write here, as contradictory with my previous posts it may seem.

I'm an optimist. All time.
To many people, I come off as naive.
But my naivety is the opposite of the common naivety.
I'm naive, because I know how things is, I know how rotten this world can be, yet I refuse to give in.

There's hope for the future. For everyone. All we have to do is believe. And dream, keep on dreaming with our hearts and our hands.---

I hope that my children are wiser and stronger than I, so that they may continue to do what is right for mankind in ways I was not able. I hope that life will go on.

---Everyone has goals. Everyone has problems.
We're always with our goals in mind, many times as means to forget the problems.

But, why not embracing them? Why not taking all the dirt from under the rug, and throwing away what you don't need, and looking at what's usable in a different way?

After we become DJs, we often look at our past as a Dark Age of AFCism...
Now that we're so great we're ashamed of our silly mistakes...

But, we exaggerate. Think, you were happy, you didn't kill yourself back then out of depression. You may have done things that now are unacceptable to you, but nowadays, you've outgrown that, and you've grown because that, so you can look back proudly and see that things that happened were not good or bad, but necessary.---

Everything changes. But to understand why, so that you can conrol how... that's why we're all here.

---Sometimes, life tries you out, willing to see how tough you really are, DJ boy. And it's not easy.
I believe that many of you, ever since this spiritual revolution which is the journey to become a DJ, have experienced things never felt before, and have intensified all the previous feelings.

Including sadness.

A DJ is hardly ever sad, or lonely, cause he's got a lot going on in his life.
But sometimes, cosmic conspirations work hard to make him sick, have a hard time with the family, friends, girls and go into bad luck periods.---

A rich man cannot tell you what its like to be rich. That is a poor mans job.

The happiest I've ever been was lying in the grass, on a hill, looking at the stars with one of the most wonderful women I've ever met. In that moment, I understood sorrow. Everything was so perfect, everything just, fit. I know that when it was over, when she was gone, I would feel a deep sadness like none I'd felt before.

And I did. But in that moment, sniffling and whiping the tears from my eyes, I understood happiness. Everything was so dark, so terrible. Happiness, that instant, was so clear.

When you are an AFC, you don't understand whats missing. But you know EXACTLY what you want to become. You see him sometimes, at the mall, the guy with the designer shoes and the gorgeous girlfriend. And once you are that guy, you understand what was missing, and sometimes it comes back to haunt you. That aching... I think a fwe of you guys know what I'm talking about.

We've had two late night chats about it, Julian. We are those guys... we are what we wanted to become all those years ago... but we pay the price.

---And even when the worst is through, sometimes we're put into holding periods, endlessly shares of time that we seem to get stuck into, with no sight of release no matter how we try...

Sometimes it's like we've lost our touch, or what used to work is not working anymore. Your jokes aren't funny, your innuendos aren't natural, your lines aren't convincing...

And no matter how you pump yourself, read all the motivational post and enjoy all the endorphines you can produce from your hard work, it still doesn't get any better... for long time...

In these times, and believe me, I've been through them a lot, you'll find out who you really are.
Probably, you're more than you expected to be...---

Sounds familiar. When it rains, it pours... but sometimes its gotta pour to wash away all that bad blood.

---Like making a sword, is not just about the fire, about the heat and the energy of being surrounded of people and girls, about succeeding and getting closer to your goals...

In order to make us unbreakable, we have to be taken from the hottest moment, and be thrown into cold water.
And left there for a while.

At first, a lot of steam will form, naturally. Compare the steam to the feelings of being lost, confused, and unable to do anything to make things become like they were before...

They're overwhelming, because they're not gradual, they're abrupt shocks. From hundreds to zero, in seconds...

But the quality of ourselves, will be made due to these shocks.
The sword made from the finest material will resist the shocks, and start to take shape and endurance, and soon the process will be over.

Just like you. If you've really tamed your inner demons, took a hold on your fears, you're going to live through the crisis, and they'll start to affect you less and less.

Soon, when you least expect, you won't have to worry about them anymore... and you'll be given a golden shine, which show the world that you're good, ready man.---

Although the battles never over, I know what you mean.

---Now you can take the world, without fear of breaking down and giving up. You're now unbreakable.

If you're lost, or ever feeling lost, remember that life is putting your raw nature to proof. And if you fail is because you still have a lot to improve.

Take your time to do that. As long as it is necessary.
Have fun, of course, a lot.
But also do this. Make yourself.
Most of the people delay this for all their lives, and when the crucial battle comes, they all break.
And it's already to late... they're too old, too tired or too lazy to mend completely. They go on, but never as integer as they could have been.

So, if you're still awake at 3 am, staring out your window and looking for an answer, what to do, what to say, who to trust, hold tight.
A new dawn always comes. The minutes may seem like hours, the hours can seem like days... the days like weeks and so on...

But eventually, it will arrive. And you'll be able to enojy it better.

If you don't where to start, just smile, and try to find random displays of beauty that this world gives to us everyday.
We're part of a big thing, called the world, and, as hard as the times maybe for EVERYONE in this joint, we're always hanging on, always making it through the cold nights, and always believe that hope never ends.

The children still gloom and play joyfully, the elders still examine this "new world" with the diginty and wisdom of kings and queens.
People, slowly, but unstoppably, are gradually breaking out of their shells and their fear of being rejected and starting to be warmer to others !

Very often, I see people smiling, laughing, and they've just met in a bus. The young guys stading up so that the old ladies can sit,
people helping others carry their bags on the street.

It's a positive anarchy, which is subversively taking over our society, and if we let our pride and selfishness aside we can finally realize that this is ther only way to become happier and help the world become better.

Work for the universe, and it'll reward you with what's best for you!

For too long, I've been bitter with life. I thought I was better, but I just saw that I'm different. Everyone's unique, and by being gentle and polite we're getting in touch with unique, special individuals, and this enriches our lives.

Don't lose hope... and most importantly, help spreading hope... when you need it the most, you can be sure you'll get it...

Life isn't good or bad, it's just a reflection of our inner selves.
Change yourself and watch the world follow you.

And remember, the dawn always comes...


Thanks for your attention gentlemen,
I wish you all a lot of happiness and achievement

BBB---

That is a beautiful post. I dont like motivational posts, or mindset posts... hell, I dont like posts. But this, I like this. I KNOW this. Everything you typed, I've lived - its good to know theres more men like me out there.

Never forget how insignificant you are... and never, EVER forget how important that makes you.
 

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:) Excellent post. Not a lot I can say, except good job, and thank you.
 

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Great post.

I'm an optimist. All time.
To many people, I come off as naive.
But my naivety is the opposite of the common naivety.
I'm naive, because I know how things is, I know how rotten this world can be, yet I refuse to give in.

There's hope for the future. For everyone. All we have to do is believe. And dream, keep on dreaming with our hearts and our hands.
That's a beautiful sentiment my friend, one which I always strive to have.

-Dan
 

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Originally posted by BBB
I'm naive, because I know how things is, I know how rotten this world can be, yet I refuse to give in.
We fight the same battle.

Originally posted by BBB
In these times, and believe me, I've been through them a lot, you'll find out who you really are. Probably, you're more than you expected to be...
I concur. You can't judge a man in times of prosperity. Sometimes I doubt myself. Yes, the very arrogant boy I am, I doubt myself. There are afcs around me and look! They're so so happy. I mean, I'm very happy... but they... And within a few hours I will see those same people get in a fight with their friends and be down for maybe a week or two. Maybe more, maybe less. When that time rolls by for myself, I'm still happy, I'm still smilling.

Let us not even talk about what happens to them when they meet real problems.


Originally posted by BBB
In order to make us unbreakable, we have to be taken from the hottest moment, and be thrown into cold water. And left there for a while.
Excelent illustration with the sword. It's quite the powerful combo to never give up, to keep striving even in times of despair. I've learned to control my emotions to an extent because of this. When I was 12, my parents divorced out of the blue. Being the innocent child I was, I never thought this possible. It was a big blow. On that day, my sister held me tight as we both poored our eyes dry. It brings tears to my eyes as I write this. But on that day, that was the final day this cruel ****ing world was going to bring me down. There was never going to be another situation where I was held back or brought down. And ever since, I strive through every experience and get harder. I control my emotions. I don't want to feel bad, I WILL NOT feel bad. And then some days you just ask yourself... Wasn't it great to feel those feelings? And now they have gone.

Rest assured, one day they will come back and they will rock your world. One day you will shed your share of tears.

The question I ask... As we progress, so do the problems and challenges we face. As we get stronger so do our battles get tougher. Even the strongest blades one day take scratches. But look at us! We are so powerful. We are almost always happy. Nature gave us a wide array of emotions, I do not believe that some will be ignored. Depending on the person, I do not believe that the blade being indestructable is the solution. Personally, I don't want to be invincible.. I don't want to grow cold even by being happy. I want to feel weakness and bleed weakness and learn from my weakness and defeat my weakness. And continually do so. Could the great blade continue to fight off weakness through all it's battles faced against the hardships of other swords or does it merely take a single blow in the cold cold water and forever is it perfect?

The different lives. I choose the former. As it's been said many times, it's about the journey, not the destination.

Excelent post.

Lik
 

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I always enjoy your posts Diego, based on the simple premise that we are completely opposite people. You are optimistic and bright... I am cynical and dark. You walk around with a smile on your face... I walk around with dark eyes piercing the society around me. I should hate you... I should hate or envy your disposition... but I do not. In the same breath however... I do not embrace it. You see it half full... I see it half empty. There is too much in this world that upsets me, just like there is probably too much in this world that makes you smile.

It does not make either of us anything bad... just different. And it is in these differing dispositions that we discover our passion and purpose in life.

Excellent writing.
 

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Originally posted by The Matrix: Reloaded
I always enjoy your posts Diego, based on the simple premise that we are completely opposite people. You are optimistic and bright... I am cynical and dark. You walk around with a smile on your face... I walk around with dark eyes piercing the society around me. I should hate you... I should hate or envy your disposition... but I do not. In the same breath however... I do not embrace it. You see it half full... I see it half empty. There is too much in this world that upsets me, just like there is probably too much in this world that makes you smile.

It does not make either of us anything bad... just different. And it is in these differing dispositions that we discover our passion and purpose in life.

Excellent writing.
Do you enjoy that life?
 

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Originally posted by LikRetsam
Do you enjoy that life?
I take great pleasure in my existence. It has it good times and bad... but that is life. A lot of people believe that cynical people are depressed people... and a lot of people that I have talked to (for whatever reason) believe that I am distant and generally emotionless. All of this has some general truth to it... but it is not the entire story. I may be cynical, but I am miles from depressed. It is in my cynicality, that I strive to create an existence I can be optimistic about. My cynicality only forces me to work harder to become a better person and create a better society. So in short... I enjoy my life immensely.
 

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First of all, I would like to apologize for all the typos and missing words... I wrote this out of feeling so when I get the "writing rush" things come out scrambled (even in my native language)

Second, thanks a lot ! I write about what I believe, about what comes inside from me, and that secures its place there after a lot of logical and critical thinking.

Well, Anthony, the old school I mentioned was referring to my old style, and the "golden age of grotesque" from this forum.
Indeed, I wasn't a poster when this board was new, but I was a reader since early 2001.

And dear Julian, more than often, I battle with myself to avoid being cynical... like when I'm on a bus, and I see a guy one year older than me with a baby...

On my left shoulder, the little devil speaks: "stupid hedonistic
bastard! only cared about a f*ck, now f*cked himself for good..."
While on my right shoulder, the little angel says: "look at this, a young guy just like you nurturing and taking care of a child, instead of just disappearing and leaving it to the mother... will you ever be able to be that selfless and compassionate BBB?"

So it's an ongoing war. My life is like a ancient threatrical piece...
I have hedonistic ego-driven friends, who only care about p*ssy, others that only care about their girlfriends, some are nice other don't give a sh!t about others...
Amidst this menagerie, I ponder very often about the nature of the human being... and, even though I see myself very often surrounded by slaves of the ego, still I have compassion.

It's not their fault. Completely.
Most people don't know they have troubles, and they need to change, need to realize the unnatractive truths, so how can you ask that from them? In a society that is interested in breeding more and more sheep, through the media that sells sex and religion to 12 years old's ?

I'm too distant and emotionless most of the time. My displays of emotion are generally when I laugh or when something gets me a little excited or angry... but I no longer live in a rollercoaster of emotions...

For some, it is bad... they can't think of living without the highs...
But those ones, they're the ones who break down when they start to reach the lows...

To quote the great Alice Cooper:
"I'm in the middle, without any plans
I'm a boy and I'm a man

I've got a baby's brain and an old man's heart
Took me eighteen years just to get me this far.."

and the road goes on...

BBB
 

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"And no matter how you pump yourself, read all the motivational post and enjoy all the endorphines you can produce from your hard work, it still doesn't get any better... for a long time...

In these times, and believe me, I've been through them a lot, you'll find out who you really are."

as I once heard: "circumstances do not make a man, they reaveal him"

Lately i have been trying to forget about the "game" "rules" and all other tehniques and tips... i was trying to be who I really am, sometimes it worked like magic and i ****ed up many important things and I was getting lost in my life.

BUT THIS POST... dam it set me right again, I am on the right path..I have chosen the hard way to really discover myself instead of playing the "game" and now i see its the only right way. THANK YOU BBB
 

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in 3 years BBB has only made 100 posts?
 
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