Ask a psychopath anyhting (a story)

Ive never really told anyone, though I've hinted it at people. I almost want to say this website is the cause but I have always been this way, its just never manifested in me until now. After spending about 6 months on this site I no longer need it. It has been a solid year since I have visited this website, I can solve whatever problem I have in relationships on my own. I rarely feel emotion, it is all shallow to me which may be the reason why I hardly come here. Analyzing situations are so much easier when you aren't emotionally attached to things. It is amazing to me though, that before this website, I was sweet, caring, wanted to marry the girl of my dreams. I cried over women that dumped me or that left me for another guy and I never understood it, what was wrong with me. I was too nice, too willing to please. I bend over backwards for any girl that showed my interest. As I became a "Don Juan" I started to notice my behaviors. My deceptiveness towards everyone, I was completely self serving. As I went though high school I noticed my callous emotions, my ability to see the weakness in others and exploit it to my needs. Charming and charismatic people loved me, they looked up to me in a sense. Only the people I have dated have seen the real side of me. Eventually I am not able to hold it in anymore, I play with the persons emotions, bend and twist them, give them something then take it all away. I lie to women just lay them and then when the deed is done and I am satisfied I leave them with nothing feeling absolutely no remorse. I'm not a violent person though I do have a deep rooted aggression that comes out at times. Ive been in a relationship with a girl for about a year and half. Ive cheated only once, I dont know why but with her I feel some sense of guilt. I couldn't kiss the girl that I cheated with only looked at her with a blank cold stare. It was then I realized I couldn't do it with this woman, she was sweet, funny, so caring. With my lack of empathy I find it hard to see when I hurt her or when she is suffering somehow. I blindly do things to her, that I don't mean to do. I always want more, Im always grabbing other asses that arent hers and flirting with them, but I never go as far as that. Ive set up this personality that is unique to her, she will never see my real side because it would kill her. I guess you can say I love her, as I said before I have a narrow emotional spectrum but I do care for this woman. On the outside I am a great person, and though I may have hinted my psychopathic traits to others they will never know what I am truly like. I feel like Dexter, living a front, showing that I am a vulnerable person, although I really am not. When my girlfriend is happy or crying I have the same blank face until I figure which emotion I need to fake. I feel joy and anger the deepest, Im never sad or anxious, I am calm under pressure and I graduated in the top 10 percentile of my high school class. Currently I am enrolled at the U of A, taking ROTC and major in chemical engineering. I want to join the Army in 82nd Airborne division like my grandfather (who was also a psychopath) and point my aggression in some positive direction. Whether or not I want a career in the military is beyond me, I will decide as it comes. Hell I may never even use my degree, but Ive always loved chemistry. I digress, my point is that this site fine tuned my psychopathic traits and made me into a self serving, callous machine. Im not saying this site will make you into a psychopath, you are either born one or not, but if you are you will know as this place will bring it out of you more than it has before.

Well I feel good letting it all out, ask me anything youre curious about!

Tl;Dr: Im a psychopath and Im an ******* at times but I can be a good person aswell. Ask me whatever you want.

I think you are narcistic.

I am aswell.

I still can feel some empathy and feel other peoples emotion, feel sad for them on the other hand I can easily crush some1 down and don't feel any emotion doing that. It depends on the person and my rationalization.

Anyway you ever talked to some1 about it? you should, I will.

TheGambino said:

I think you are narcistic.

I am aswell.

I still can feel some empathy and feel other peoples emotion, feel sad for them on the other hand I can easily crush some1 down and don't feel any emotion doing that. It depends on the person and my rationalization.

Anyway you ever talked to some1 about it? you should, I will.

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I haven't talked to anyone, I have spoken to a friends parent who is a psychiatrist, casually, and I could tell he could feel something was off about me. I think rationalization is everything. I could do whatever I please if I find some good rationalization for it. I fake every human interaction, I sense that someone is upset or angry and I calculate how I should react. It's like I analyze the scenario and pick one of the ways to behave that will grant me the best outcome .

I agree with theGambino, you're also narcissistic. Under certain circumstances I share your lack of empathy for others (for reasons that I find their emotional state excessive and unnecessary) so I understand what it means to make a calculated reaction.

Not sure about psychopaths, but I know for a fact that a narcissist cannot be changed, they are what they are and it's probably in the genes.

When do you usually feel strong emotion? Perhaps name top 3 occasions when you felt it most. Does anything make you feel happy? Does anything make you feel sad? What brings out the violent temper? How does witnessing someone suffer immense pain make you feel?

most people are narcissists. social media is a testament to that.

Psychopaths does not exist, let us use real terms and not made up vodoo psychology. You're a narcissist if I've ever seen one. You can practise utilizing more empathy and feelings, your personality is not set in stone. Here's a good link to help you:
http://lifehacker.com/why-empathy-is-your-most-important-skill-and-how-to-pr-1505011685