Getting So Knumb

logicallefty said:

Over the past 7 days I have:

- Found out my daughter didn't get accepted into the school she really wants to go to, and I wanted her there too
You have no control over this
- Found out my step dad has multiple spots on his liver that are likely cancer
Sorry to hear and it suck, but again you have no control over this
- Found out I had to eat $400.00 to cancel the trip with my ex, but I still canceled it
Again sucks, but you don't appear to have any control of this one either
- Found out the job I was hoping to get soon may not go through now
Your luck has really gone bad, again sorry to hear it, but you have no control over this either.
- Found out at my current job that the amount of evening and weekend calls I get will soon be doubling or more
No control over this either.

- Caught someone I really cared about and respected talking behind my back, the last person I would have ever expected to do this
C'est la vie. Again sucks but no control over this aspect either

- I got my ex texting me all of her emotional goon babble about our past and why everything was my fault. I finally texted her back this same list above and told her that I really don't give a sh|t about her now so she needs to stop bothering me. She didn't.
No control here either

The funny thing is, all this stuff, I am sitting here now and can honestly tell you guys that I don't even care about any of it. It's all bad news that I should be concerned about, but I have got to the point in my life that I pretty much expect some kind of bad news like this everyday.
Good, while it's hard not to care when things happen the best part is that you're not getting worked about things you can't control

I have got to the point where I take all of the positives of the day and focus on them, and the negatives, I just blow off.
This is good way to be but negatives should only be blown off if you didn't have any way to control the outcome from a realistic point of view

I am just so knumb anymore, I have almost no emotion when it comes to bad news. It's like "ok whatever LIFE, if that's what you want to do to me today, go for it". Then I go focus on something good that happened.
Dunno if being numb is ultimately a good thing but being detached is and there is a difference.

Did anything good happen today? Let's see. On yeah a friend of mine who had dropped their phone in the toilet got a new one and called me to tell me. That's been the good news of my day so far.

Is my attitude healthy or a problem? Should I be more concerned?
Difference between numb and detached is that being numb implies that you refuse to feel whereas detached is acknowledging that you have emotions but refusing to allow your feelings overwhelm you or affect to the point where you can't still function at a high level.

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Scaramouche said:

Dear Lefty,
Yeah...Why Dogs leave home Huh?...It was once my privilege to work with a fine Old Englishman...He took it upon himself to Raise and Lower the Flag at Work every Day...This he did with A salute given with that Panache that comes from a long Service life..I befriended him,asked him one day about how he came by a shocking injury on his face,that had claimed one eye...told me he had been captured by the Japanese in Hong Kong,sent to work on the Burma Railroad,on his 22nd Birthday he hadn't moved fast enough and a Jap had smashed his face in with a rifle Butt...He got talking about his experiences one lunchtime and reflected,that he had actually got something out of this terrible experience, though he wore only a Lap-Lap,was starved,beaten and daily in danger of his life,he realised he still had something very precious,and so do you Lefty!

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