this story is simply pathetic, because I was such an afc back then, just sad and pathetic, really. But I met this girl again now in 2010, my oneitis is cured since her presence now does not make me want even a piece of her, rather revenge for what she has done. So please read this and advise me if I should take revenge or not ?
in 2004 I was an average frustrated idiot, 22 years old, with a nice girlfriend (my second relationship EVER!), I was well off financially and had a very nice job. My oneitis has eventually ruined my relationship and my career, here is how it happened. Please dont flame me for being AFC/idiot, yes I was + I have traits of borderline and narcissism, which have been treated since then and can safely say I'm healthy now. View this story through the eyes of a previously disordered male.
In 2004 my boss sent me to evening college to study for 3 years to develop marketing skills. There I met a girl, we become friends, we smoked together, and talked together. The girl was unemployed and asked me if she could apply for job in the company I worked for, I said yes, sure please do, she applied and did not get hired. Somewhere in the middle of the first grade my mind began to think more and more of the girl as she appeared "very special", u know how it goes. It just happened, out of nowhere.
Instead of asking her to go out and to be rejected I decided to supress my oneitis and thought it would go away + I had a girlfriend back then, who could calm me sexually.
During the second year of the college my oneitis became even stronger, the girl decided to sit near me frequently and to provoke me whenever she could, just for fun and to please her ego. As we all know girls love such things, especially since she felt "loved and appreciated". I continued to ignore her because as an average AFC I was afraid of being rejected blah blah, pathetic.
At the end of the second grade I decided to provoke the girl myself, to see what would happen if I ignored her giving a presentation in front of the class. So she was standing there in front of us telling us about something when I was not paying attention, instead I was writing something. And then the war began, her reaction was beyond my imagination. The next day in college she was red as cooked lobster, her voice was hurt and angry. She humiliated me at least once in front of everyone by refusing to work with my group on project.
At the end of the year I wrote her a cold distant email telling her I was sorry for my behaviour and that the reason for it was irrelevant (but pretty obvious to her).
In July 2006 she applied for a job in my company again telling the boss not only that she knew me, but that I had crash on her for 2 years and that I was "strange".
From that point of time, the boss began to give me less and less respect and fired me in 2008 due to incompetence.
Back to 2006: the girl from college worked in my company for a few weeks and spread a ****load of rumours about my crash on her. Someone from my collegues told my girlfriend about this too, so she ended the relationship in an instant.
At the beginning of the third grade in September 2006 I decided to take a year off, to skip the 3rd grade so my oneitis would graduate in June 2007 and when I would come back to college in September 2007 I would finally get rid off her presence near me.
So I skipped a year, cured myself from these irrelevant emotions, found another gf and was improving, at least I thought I was.
In September 2007 I came back to college and knowing she graduated and that I was cured. Bad luck, the girl failed one single exam and was there again. So I relapsed after a week or two and my head began to think of her again. Since she was attending classes only once a week I completely ignored her, never looked or talked to her.
During the last class of the year, right before graduation something unexpected had happened: she sat very near my and gave me severe IOI's. Since I was a nerd and unable to trust her I brutally rejected her avances and went home. However once there I regretted it and did something disgustingly aweful, wrote her an emo email which is answered with a brutal "fkk off".
this whole pathetic thing created a severe emotional trauma in my head, since a part of me began to think it was all just a game and another part of me thought she did it all because she might have had interest.
this girl taught me a lot in life, its thanks to her that I came here and finally start being a man, cold, sarcastic and yet funny, flirting with girls etc.
having not seen her for 2.5 years we met again in a gym and Im thinking how to proceed. I dont want anything from her but a part of my head was revenge for humiliation in college and at work. What should I do ?
Guys, dont be afc, it really sucks!!! we get pushed around, used and laughed at.
in 2004 I was an average frustrated idiot, 22 years old, with a nice girlfriend (my second relationship EVER!), I was well off financially and had a very nice job. My oneitis has eventually ruined my relationship and my career, here is how it happened. Please dont flame me for being AFC/idiot, yes I was + I have traits of borderline and narcissism, which have been treated since then and can safely say I'm healthy now. View this story through the eyes of a previously disordered male.
In 2004 my boss sent me to evening college to study for 3 years to develop marketing skills. There I met a girl, we become friends, we smoked together, and talked together. The girl was unemployed and asked me if she could apply for job in the company I worked for, I said yes, sure please do, she applied and did not get hired. Somewhere in the middle of the first grade my mind began to think more and more of the girl as she appeared "very special", u know how it goes. It just happened, out of nowhere.
Instead of asking her to go out and to be rejected I decided to supress my oneitis and thought it would go away + I had a girlfriend back then, who could calm me sexually.
During the second year of the college my oneitis became even stronger, the girl decided to sit near me frequently and to provoke me whenever she could, just for fun and to please her ego. As we all know girls love such things, especially since she felt "loved and appreciated". I continued to ignore her because as an average AFC I was afraid of being rejected blah blah, pathetic.
At the end of the second grade I decided to provoke the girl myself, to see what would happen if I ignored her giving a presentation in front of the class. So she was standing there in front of us telling us about something when I was not paying attention, instead I was writing something. And then the war began, her reaction was beyond my imagination. The next day in college she was red as cooked lobster, her voice was hurt and angry. She humiliated me at least once in front of everyone by refusing to work with my group on project.
At the end of the year I wrote her a cold distant email telling her I was sorry for my behaviour and that the reason for it was irrelevant (but pretty obvious to her).
In July 2006 she applied for a job in my company again telling the boss not only that she knew me, but that I had crash on her for 2 years and that I was "strange".
From that point of time, the boss began to give me less and less respect and fired me in 2008 due to incompetence.
Back to 2006: the girl from college worked in my company for a few weeks and spread a ****load of rumours about my crash on her. Someone from my collegues told my girlfriend about this too, so she ended the relationship in an instant.
At the beginning of the third grade in September 2006 I decided to take a year off, to skip the 3rd grade so my oneitis would graduate in June 2007 and when I would come back to college in September 2007 I would finally get rid off her presence near me.
So I skipped a year, cured myself from these irrelevant emotions, found another gf and was improving, at least I thought I was.
In September 2007 I came back to college and knowing she graduated and that I was cured. Bad luck, the girl failed one single exam and was there again. So I relapsed after a week or two and my head began to think of her again. Since she was attending classes only once a week I completely ignored her, never looked or talked to her.
During the last class of the year, right before graduation something unexpected had happened: she sat very near my and gave me severe IOI's. Since I was a nerd and unable to trust her I brutally rejected her avances and went home. However once there I regretted it and did something disgustingly aweful, wrote her an emo email which is answered with a brutal "fkk off".
this whole pathetic thing created a severe emotional trauma in my head, since a part of me began to think it was all just a game and another part of me thought she did it all because she might have had interest.
this girl taught me a lot in life, its thanks to her that I came here and finally start being a man, cold, sarcastic and yet funny, flirting with girls etc.
having not seen her for 2.5 years we met again in a gym and Im thinking how to proceed. I dont want anything from her but a part of my head was revenge for humiliation in college and at work. What should I do ?
Guys, dont be afc, it really sucks!!! we get pushed around, used and laughed at.
