I wouldn't define myself as an afc, and I think that I am slowly but surely becoming a don juan. Not in the "game" aspect, but in general. I've improved leaps and bounds from last year in everything. I actually have a social group, and I'm always busy on the weekends, and I feel like an alpha. In my group of friends people listen to what i have to say, and it's a good feeling. I'm not just restricted to that group. I've gotten to the point on the social ladder where i can chill with almost anyone in the school. While a lot of you are here to be a PUA or a player, pimp, etc. I'm not, and I know I'll never be that. It's just not who I am, and I'm not complaining.
I'm not smooth with girls, and I never have been, but I'm charismatic and good at talking to people, so girls like me anyways. I don't hit on every girl i come in contact with like some of my friends do, and that's because my ego won't let me. My friends do a lot of stuff. A lot of stuff I tell myself I won't do. A lot of stuff I hope I never do. They smoke, drink, and screw, and I don't. I just don't. I don't do it because i'm afraid, I just don't do it. I don't think it's cool, or entertaining, or just a good idea. I don't do it because I don't want to do it, and it's my decision to make. A real DJ does what he wants and walks away when he has to. He doesn't do something just because his friends are doing it, and he does what he wants in general. My dad always taught me growing up to have a strong, mind of my own and that's what I hope to always do.
I'm writing this because I was told something today. There's this one girl i'm friends with who told me today that "I'm her role model." We were talking about sex, drugs, and drinking and I asked why she said so, and she told me that I stick with my beliefs and morals and she doesn't know many people like me. I"m not interested in this girl or anything, but i thought it was cool that she thought that way of me. I keep thinking about this, and playing it back in my head, and honestly, I think that's what i want to be. I wouldn't be able to have a ONS or take advantage of someone. That's just not who I am.
So say what you will. Some might think I'm an AFC, but if that's what an AFC is, then I'll always be one. I'm not looking for a girl, and I never have been. My entire time here i've been searching for answers to questions i already knew. I was just always too afraid to let myself believe that.
I'm not smooth with girls, and I never have been, but I'm charismatic and good at talking to people, so girls like me anyways. I don't hit on every girl i come in contact with like some of my friends do, and that's because my ego won't let me. My friends do a lot of stuff. A lot of stuff I tell myself I won't do. A lot of stuff I hope I never do. They smoke, drink, and screw, and I don't. I just don't. I don't do it because i'm afraid, I just don't do it. I don't think it's cool, or entertaining, or just a good idea. I don't do it because I don't want to do it, and it's my decision to make. A real DJ does what he wants and walks away when he has to. He doesn't do something just because his friends are doing it, and he does what he wants in general. My dad always taught me growing up to have a strong, mind of my own and that's what I hope to always do.
I'm writing this because I was told something today. There's this one girl i'm friends with who told me today that "I'm her role model." We were talking about sex, drugs, and drinking and I asked why she said so, and she told me that I stick with my beliefs and morals and she doesn't know many people like me. I"m not interested in this girl or anything, but i thought it was cool that she thought that way of me. I keep thinking about this, and playing it back in my head, and honestly, I think that's what i want to be. I wouldn't be able to have a ONS or take advantage of someone. That's just not who I am.
So say what you will. Some might think I'm an AFC, but if that's what an AFC is, then I'll always be one. I'm not looking for a girl, and I never have been. My entire time here i've been searching for answers to questions i already knew. I was just always too afraid to let myself believe that.
