I wasn't going to post anything about this, but now I'm REALLY confused.
You can read my previous threads about the situation if you want, but basically she kept teasing me and teasing me, and this past weekend I had enough. I made plans to move out, as there's no way I can see myself dealing with this for the length of the entire lease.
Saturday night she ****teased me again, and went to bed. I woke her up and told her we needed to talk. I told her what my intentions were, and she looked like she was ready to cry. We sat down and talked about it, and she started telling me how she feels about me, like how she's attracted to me, and she felt bad for teasing me (she called herself a bltch), but that she couldn't help herself and isn't looking for anything. Then she offered to "casually date" me, but I told her it was too late for that and said it sounded like pity on her part.
Then she said, "Well, if you're moving out, we might as well try making out to see if there are an sparks.". I tried resisting, but went ahead. A few minutes later and her pajama bottoms were soaking wet. She offered a lot of resistance, but ultimately we ended up in her room. I wasn't in top form, as I had been drinking and was stressed out about everything, so I might have left a bad impression on her, but she seemed happy afterwards and her aim seemed to be to make me happy too. She didn't even mind that I nutted in her eye.
I stayed in her room for the night, but she told me I shouldn't stay the whole night because she didn't want the other roommate and her BF coming home and finding the two of us in bed together just yet, because the situation might seem wierd. She kind of implied that this wasn't going to be the last time we'd be together. Regardless, the other roommate never came home, so I stayed in her room until the afternoon.
The next morning things were maybe a little wierd between us, but she still seemed happy. Almost like she was in love with me. We did the dishes together, and she was still holding my hands, trying to tickle me, smacking my ass, and I was doing the same. Things seemed fine. Then I had to go to work.
When I came home she had made dinner for herself, but made extra and offered it to me. Then we just sat on the couch for a bit, and it felt a little awkward, but mainly because I was so tired. After a bit of TV I left for the gym, and she was being really cool about everything, like opening the door for me as I left, asking me if I slept well the night before, and being extra nice. I thought everything was going to pan out nicely.
Today my other roommate came into my room and asked me if I was staying. I took a guess and figured that the other roommate must have talked to her after I left the night before. I assured her that things were fine, and that I was staying, but she seemed reluctant to believe me. Then it dawned on me that things might not be all right.
She didn't specifically tell her that we'd had sex, but she already kinda figured we had (she knew we did in the past, she saw how we act around each other, and she read between the lines). But then she said she considers me a better friend than the other roommate, so she was gonna tell me this. Basically, she was told about everything that happened saturday night, leaving out the part about us having sex, but she was told that things felt wierd the next morning, and that she isn't ready for a relationship now. That she needs things to be stable between herself and whoever she ultimately does end up with. She said that if she gets into a relationship, she wants it to be for the long haul.
So now I'm very confused. I got the impression she wanted to keep things going on a casual level. Now I'm thinking that she wants to close the door.
Any ideas?
You can read my previous threads about the situation if you want, but basically she kept teasing me and teasing me, and this past weekend I had enough. I made plans to move out, as there's no way I can see myself dealing with this for the length of the entire lease.
Saturday night she ****teased me again, and went to bed. I woke her up and told her we needed to talk. I told her what my intentions were, and she looked like she was ready to cry. We sat down and talked about it, and she started telling me how she feels about me, like how she's attracted to me, and she felt bad for teasing me (she called herself a bltch), but that she couldn't help herself and isn't looking for anything. Then she offered to "casually date" me, but I told her it was too late for that and said it sounded like pity on her part.
Then she said, "Well, if you're moving out, we might as well try making out to see if there are an sparks.". I tried resisting, but went ahead. A few minutes later and her pajama bottoms were soaking wet. She offered a lot of resistance, but ultimately we ended up in her room. I wasn't in top form, as I had been drinking and was stressed out about everything, so I might have left a bad impression on her, but she seemed happy afterwards and her aim seemed to be to make me happy too. She didn't even mind that I nutted in her eye.
I stayed in her room for the night, but she told me I shouldn't stay the whole night because she didn't want the other roommate and her BF coming home and finding the two of us in bed together just yet, because the situation might seem wierd. She kind of implied that this wasn't going to be the last time we'd be together. Regardless, the other roommate never came home, so I stayed in her room until the afternoon.
The next morning things were maybe a little wierd between us, but she still seemed happy. Almost like she was in love with me. We did the dishes together, and she was still holding my hands, trying to tickle me, smacking my ass, and I was doing the same. Things seemed fine. Then I had to go to work.
When I came home she had made dinner for herself, but made extra and offered it to me. Then we just sat on the couch for a bit, and it felt a little awkward, but mainly because I was so tired. After a bit of TV I left for the gym, and she was being really cool about everything, like opening the door for me as I left, asking me if I slept well the night before, and being extra nice. I thought everything was going to pan out nicely.
Today my other roommate came into my room and asked me if I was staying. I took a guess and figured that the other roommate must have talked to her after I left the night before. I assured her that things were fine, and that I was staying, but she seemed reluctant to believe me. Then it dawned on me that things might not be all right.
She didn't specifically tell her that we'd had sex, but she already kinda figured we had (she knew we did in the past, she saw how we act around each other, and she read between the lines). But then she said she considers me a better friend than the other roommate, so she was gonna tell me this. Basically, she was told about everything that happened saturday night, leaving out the part about us having sex, but she was told that things felt wierd the next morning, and that she isn't ready for a relationship now. That she needs things to be stable between herself and whoever she ultimately does end up with. She said that if she gets into a relationship, she wants it to be for the long haul.
So now I'm very confused. I got the impression she wanted to keep things going on a casual level. Now I'm thinking that she wants to close the door.
Any ideas?