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ok, here's that FR, and I guess it is a LR, too. Myspace did get me laid.
We went to the winery's fall festival thing and split a pitcher of sangria. And of course, who should we see but my ex-gf, who I had not seen since she dumped me. My date saw the look on my face, and I ended up telling her it was my ex. Then I just ignored her, and we had a good time. Afterward, it was my date's idea to rent a movie to watch at her place (big IOI). We rented a movie, got a pizza, and I sat next to her on her couch barely touching her through most of the movie. kino was light if any. Then after the movie, we just talked for a while. She goes to the school I just graduated from. She was very receptive to light kino. She ended up throwing her legs across my lap, and I remembered a girl doing that when I was 19 (I have a good memory) right before we fvcked.
Now's a good time to point out that I had just spent over six hours with this girl and not even kissed her. It would have been too easy just to pick up and leave. I already felt like kind of a wuss for not kissing her yet, so I made myself do it. I did the kiss test, hair stroking thing, caught strong eye contact so she saw me coming, and kissed her. The change was instant. She was immediately all over me.
I did get some LMR/ASD. We stopped making out to go to the bedroom, then she abruptly halted, and said, "No! You have to leave.....now." But drawing on experience, I knew what was going on. She was afraid of fvcking on the first date, typical ASD. My ex, the one we saw tonight, actually kicked me out like this on our first date, to avoid the fvck-on-the-first-date stigma. The ex later told me she did it because she wanted me to call again. So when my date tonight did it, I was like, "oh, ok" and shrugged my shoulders like it was no big deal at all. I smiled and told her that I understood, and that it was actually a compliment. When I turned to put my shoes on, she grabbed me by the sleeve, said "oh come on," and pulled me into the bedroom.
And she was surprising good in bed.:yes:
Afterward, she asked me if "things would be weird now." I asked her if she meant would I either never call again or start acting like we were married and we laughed about the way that other guys act. She said something like 'good becaue I'm going to see other guys' and I expressed genuine relief and said, "good, because I'm going to see other girls." I think it was just a sh!ttest, but either way I can honestly say that I don't care what she does when I'm not around, not at all - zero, zilch, no giving of the slightest sh!t whatsoever if other guys are fvcking her. It is empowering to not care at all.
She was, however, less than thrilled that I did not stay the night. I'm sure she felt like a total wh0re, having fvcked on the first date to a guy who then bolted, but that's her problem. I'm just not the sleepover type. I'd rather come home and type a LR on sosuave....
